Hello to everybody.
I really need some advice. I can't talk to anybody about this problem.
I'll start at the beginning: I have a wonderful boyfriend. We are together since 2 years and we live together for about 1 year now (before we onyl saw each other on the Weekends).
And there's one big Problem (really big): his best friend. Let's call him M.
The day I met my boyfriend was the day I met M, too. But I don't really paid some attention to him, I was way more attracted to my boyfriend (if not to say I've even not noticed M...).
My boyfriend and me began to date and fell in love and so on. Whenever I met M (from time to time, when we went out with my boyfriends friends) there was something "in the air" - a very strong sympathie. I really like M, he's cute and he has my sense of humour.
From time to time I thought about M - But I've never really paid attention to him - i was too lucky with my bf.
And then my bf and I got Problems... The usual things - household etc. We had our fights ...
One day we invited M to our flat. We drank some alcohol and we had so much fun... I had great talks with him. Really.
Two weeks later we went out with his best friend. M was so cute, we had so much fun, we laughed, we talked so much. He carried me on his back from pub to pub.
We hugged very often and I felt so comfortable. I felt so attracted to him... I noticed I was jealous when M talked to a Girl he knows - but of course I didn't show it. I went downstairs and then M called my name and took my hand. (My boyfriend waited in the car)
When we drove home, I lied on his shoulder and fell asleep. Good, I swear, it was wonderfull! And he didn't pull me away- so he don't felt uncomfortable, did he? Wouldn't he pulled me away if he had felt uncomfortable?
From this night on, I couldn't stop thinking about him! You should know - the night was 3 months ago! And I thought about M nearly every day... I thought it was just a phase/stage. Because I really love my BF. He's cute, adorable, he tries everything to make me happy. I'm lucky to have him. So lucky.
One week ago - from one day to another - I stopped thinkíng about M. I focused on my bf and my relationship. Everything was fine.
And then this saturday my bf got a Invitation to a birthday Party - and guess who was there - M.
When he greet me, my heart sank into my boots. God, i was nervous... I couldn't face looking at M for the next hour. But I could saw him starring at me every other second. really strange.
Then he sat down beside me and my by and we talked (ok my bf and M talked more than I talked with M). The whole group decided to go to a pub and my bf and me sat down right beside M. After a while my bf went outside and M was right beside me. We talked. A lot. And we laughed. I wrote M on FB one time (it was a mistake when I was drunk - I thought if I could ask him sth. And when he said fine, I didn't replied and then he asked me again what I'd like to ask him, but I just said that it doesn't matter)- so at this night he asked me what I wanted to ask him (gosh it was 2 month ago, why did he still remember it?)... M even does know when my birthday is - I didn't tell him. And it is not on FB. He told me that he told my BF that he should never ever let me go, because he is so lucky to have such a Girl. He mentioned that he does not know any other Girl that is that beautiful, intelligent, cute and sexy. Gosh...
On the other hand I told him that my bf is jealous about him and me and he just replied "There is no reason to be"
At the end of the night we ended up in a taxi - like last time .. but he slept on my shoulder...
God, I feel so guilty about it all.. But I can't get M out of my mind. I love my bf, but we have so much Trouble at the Moment.
And M? I can't think about anything else at the Moment - it's so hard.
Has anyone here ever been in a similiar Situation?
I feel so guilty.
Please don't judge me... I really Need some advice. It's not nice that I think about M all the time - think of kissing him, think of being together with him. I don't even know if he has a crush on me too or on some other Girl. But does it really matter? I have my wonderfull BF!
I'm sorry it is such a long text.
Thanks for any help in advance1
I really need some advice. I can't talk to anybody about this problem.
I'll start at the beginning: I have a wonderful boyfriend. We are together since 2 years and we live together for about 1 year now (before we onyl saw each other on the Weekends).
And there's one big Problem (really big): his best friend. Let's call him M.
The day I met my boyfriend was the day I met M, too. But I don't really paid some attention to him, I was way more attracted to my boyfriend (if not to say I've even not noticed M...).
My boyfriend and me began to date and fell in love and so on. Whenever I met M (from time to time, when we went out with my boyfriends friends) there was something "in the air" - a very strong sympathie. I really like M, he's cute and he has my sense of humour.
From time to time I thought about M - But I've never really paid attention to him - i was too lucky with my bf.
And then my bf and I got Problems... The usual things - household etc. We had our fights ...
One day we invited M to our flat. We drank some alcohol and we had so much fun... I had great talks with him. Really.
Two weeks later we went out with his best friend. M was so cute, we had so much fun, we laughed, we talked so much. He carried me on his back from pub to pub.
We hugged very often and I felt so comfortable. I felt so attracted to him... I noticed I was jealous when M talked to a Girl he knows - but of course I didn't show it. I went downstairs and then M called my name and took my hand. (My boyfriend waited in the car)
When we drove home, I lied on his shoulder and fell asleep. Good, I swear, it was wonderfull! And he didn't pull me away- so he don't felt uncomfortable, did he? Wouldn't he pulled me away if he had felt uncomfortable?
From this night on, I couldn't stop thinking about him! You should know - the night was 3 months ago! And I thought about M nearly every day... I thought it was just a phase/stage. Because I really love my BF. He's cute, adorable, he tries everything to make me happy. I'm lucky to have him. So lucky.
One week ago - from one day to another - I stopped thinkíng about M. I focused on my bf and my relationship. Everything was fine.
And then this saturday my bf got a Invitation to a birthday Party - and guess who was there - M.
When he greet me, my heart sank into my boots. God, i was nervous... I couldn't face looking at M for the next hour. But I could saw him starring at me every other second. really strange.
Then he sat down beside me and my by and we talked (ok my bf and M talked more than I talked with M). The whole group decided to go to a pub and my bf and me sat down right beside M. After a while my bf went outside and M was right beside me. We talked. A lot. And we laughed. I wrote M on FB one time (it was a mistake when I was drunk - I thought if I could ask him sth. And when he said fine, I didn't replied and then he asked me again what I'd like to ask him, but I just said that it doesn't matter)- so at this night he asked me what I wanted to ask him (gosh it was 2 month ago, why did he still remember it?)... M even does know when my birthday is - I didn't tell him. And it is not on FB. He told me that he told my BF that he should never ever let me go, because he is so lucky to have such a Girl. He mentioned that he does not know any other Girl that is that beautiful, intelligent, cute and sexy. Gosh...
On the other hand I told him that my bf is jealous about him and me and he just replied "There is no reason to be"
At the end of the night we ended up in a taxi - like last time .. but he slept on my shoulder...
God, I feel so guilty about it all.. But I can't get M out of my mind. I love my bf, but we have so much Trouble at the Moment.
And M? I can't think about anything else at the Moment - it's so hard.
Has anyone here ever been in a similiar Situation?
I feel so guilty.
Please don't judge me... I really Need some advice. It's not nice that I think about M all the time - think of kissing him, think of being together with him. I don't even know if he has a crush on me too or on some other Girl. But does it really matter? I have my wonderfull BF!
I'm sorry it is such a long text.
Thanks for any help in advance1