[wagon train]

Thank you so much for sharing Zara and Bettie! I love this thread idea. I agree that it's funny how body trends seem to flucuate. 

For me I'd also like to think like Zara does, that I'm not influenced by society, and just that I've always wanted  a big rack (which I have), but I know that's not true. And I know a large part of this is I want to be seen as desirable and I know large breasts are attractive to others. I enjoy attention and always have. 

I think it also stems from boys saying horrible things. Boys saying I used to look manly because I did weightlifting and had more muscle. Boys i was dating commenting on random girls or how their exs had huge racks. I know that's in my subconscious. 

I've also loved dressing up my entire life and got into cosplay later. And if you watch any nerd stuff or play games there are very few characters who don't have a serious rack! 

In my family too, I remember showering with my aunt when I was much younger and I thought her body was the most beautiful thing on the planet! She was well endowed, and so we're the other women in my family. So I don't feel like a woman. 

All in all I'm with someone who supports me and makes light of NBE so it never gets too grim or serious. It's like an experiment and a hobby. And the more progress I make the better I feel when I look in the mirror. It's also helped me establish a reason to have routine again which I'm thankful for. Pumping also forces me to take a break every day because I have to stay still which is super nice as well. 

Sorry this got long!