30-10-2016, 05:12 AM
(29-10-2016, 06:56 PM)James98 Wrote:(29-10-2016, 03:26 AM)blessedbreasts Wrote: Hi missb, thanks so much for checking in!
Things are going okay. I went on a vacation to Florida with my brother, his wife, and their two kids. Before anyone gets jealous, it was kind of terrible and it made me long for my own life and my own happiness. My brother and his wife sometimes treated me like an afterthought or straight up left me out of things. My niece and nephew acted rotten and sometimes their punishment would involve us not doing things that would have been fun. I had to take turns sharing my bed with every family member there except my brother and they were all complete bed hogs. I didn't get much sleep. The best part is, my niece was sick and my sister-in-law (who I've suspected for a while doesn't like me very much) insisted that she share a bed with me. I'm now so sick I'm having coughing fits that wake me up at night and I nearly vomited at work today.
The thing that really got to me, though, was being out and about and seeing so many different kinds of couples together and having it make me wonder what was so wrong with me that I can't seem to attain that. Even seeing my brother and sister-in-law together did that to me.
I really, really wish I hadn't gone. I wish I could go back in time. I missed out on a fun social event that the boy was probably at, and I missed some crucial training for my new job. From now on, when my brother wants me to tag along on something with his family, I'm going to say no.
I really want my own romance. I want to finally be really, truly happy for once in my life.
As far as growth goes, I don't think there's a whole lot of change, but they're definitely holding onto their fullness. I'm still doing the same things: massaging and eating well. I plan on making changes to my supplements soon. I'm going to phase out MSM and introduce collagen supplements. MSM isn't helping my skin, and that's one of the main reasons why I started taking it. I want my NBE foods and supplements to assist in my skin health, too. My skin needs all the help it can get.
I won't be seeing the boy for a while, as I'm super sick and won't be going out and about much for at least another week. This is especially annoying since my vacation made me miss out on some interactions with him, too. Super frustrating.
Sorry to hear about your wasted trip. Unfortunately sometimes we just have to go through these bad experiences to get our priorities straight. This is one mistake you will not make again! Things will get better, cheers.
Thank you. The only reason why I went is because it was planned months and months ago, before I'd ever even interviewed for my new job. I didn't anticipate having a whole new life I'd be adjusting to. Plus I paid hundreds of dollars toward going on it that I couldn't get back, so it would have been a waste of money not to go.
You're absolutely right about priorities. I'm extra eager now to be laser-focused on setting up my new life.