I understand exactly how you feel.. I think its great you're taking charge and doing something for you!
As far as the pump, may I ask why you can't get it? I ask because if money is an issue you can buy used ones off this site (that is how I got mine :p) for much cheaper then they sell on the noogleberry store. Also, because of your cup size I feel you can even be a candidate for kangzhu-- its another pump that people on this site use.. it's used for chinese cupping therapy but works just like noogleberry. Its MUCH cheaper. I would get it myself but my breast wouldn't fit the cups.
PC is progesterone cream, yes. If you do buy one-- look for one with no phytoestrogens in it.. http://www.smokymountainnaturals.com/par...ife-cream/
is a good one
I have used volufiline-- i'm not crazy about it. It's suppose to store fat in the area and it does work but it's not like a miracle cream, yano? when I used it-- my breasts looked slightly more perky and "lifted" not necessarily bigger. It's worth a shot if you want to try but for me I wouldn't buy it again-- it was, however, really good for stretch marks. I used it on any I had and they faded immensely.
They always say like, baby asprin is good for things like that but I haven't dabbled enough with PM and BC (had bad run ins with both) to say enough on the subject. Have you had a history with blood clots? If people are doing that, I am sure it's a thing-- but I can't answer for sure.
it sounds like maaaaaaaaaybe your breast could be underdeveloped but i'm not a doctor so I really can't say-- I like to keep in mind that breasts come in all different shapes and sizes-- yes there are syndromes and "deformities" but the breast you shown don't seem to be in those categories. What I can say that you seem to describe that you have asymmetrical breasts (one bigger then the other) I would look at jenniferlove's program.
she started that way too and now she is no where near it. it's a good inspiration
and myself too-- I lost a lot of weight and got to a 34b and my breast shape was never the same.. even to this day I am trying to gain more roundness and everything I have done has aided in growth and roundness.
but as far as to aid in your NBE.. I would definitely start massaging..
check out kat's massage guide for ways to massage your breast.
when I massage I do it for 10 mins 3x a day. It really improves roundness and growth. I would look into PC, only use it during luteal. I would get on a multi vitamin. You can even try Maca if you like, it has great amino acids in it for breast growth and health. I still would look into a pump in the future and if you do try PM make sure to cycle it during your follicular phase. If your hormones are level I would match PC with PM to keep you from becoming Progesterone dominant. So you would take PC during your luteal phase and PM during your follicular phase and nothing when you have your period. rinse and repeat.
Sorry this is so long lol