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Day 46 (feels like day forever)

Had some strange pulling sensations around aerola area today. No aches or pains today though so 1/10.

I really did do a bad job at cleaning up the oil mixture that spilled everywhere, I keep finding bits of it. It went EVERYWHERE. Today one of my friends came over and he told me that as soon as he got in the front door he could smell fenugreek, and when he got into my room he said it smelled of it really badly!!! I haven't been able to open the windows lately as its been raining all the time. And I hadn't showered since I had massaged in the morning, so I guess that why I smelled like it! He is the only one I have told about what I am doing! So I will have to ask him in a few days if I still smell like it! Hopefully not.

Breasts still feel a bit sore like a tired muscle after you have been playing sport, when I touch them.

Motivation is waning at the moment. I don't feel like I am growing at all, but who knows. Maybe it is because I am ill at the moment too. Good news on that front, is that I am definitely on the mend. I guess I just have to not think to much about this whole NBE stuff, rather, just do it! I find it useful to report back each day, because it keeps me on track taking my pills, and doing the massages.

I've been eating tonnes of dark green vegetables this week. I don't really like eating vegetables at all, so its quite a chore for me to do it. So basically I make sure I eat them before I eat the meat (which I love!). I never crave sugary foods anymore which is really interesting. I had a small protein shake again today, about 1/3 of a normal size. I thought I would just take a bit a day as I think my body should be able to cope with the sugar levels in it, and I don't drink it with rice/soy milk anymore because there is too much sugar in that, rather I drink it with water. Which is pretty disgusting.... but all in the name of larger breasts....

As I am writing this I can feel my left breast tingly away!!! I am just listening to the rockmelon ringtone too. I'm not sure, but I seem to get aches/tingles in my breasts about 20 minutes or so after I eat a meal. No idea if that is linked to the meal or not?

I wish my breasts would hurry up and grow. When I look at myself in the mirror, I notice just how thin I am on the top half of my body. Its so annoying that the fat goes down to my bum and thighs, but not the upper part!

I've been trying to improve my posture, so when I am sitting somewhere, particularly at the dinner time, I remind myself to sit up straight. Its hard, because its so much easier to slouch! But I am hoping over time that it will become more "natural" for me to sit up straight, and that will help the appearance of my breasts too. "Shoulders back, head high" etc etc.

I'm going to be really interested (scared!) to see what I measure next time I measure, as I don't feel like I have grown any more. Sometimes I find my breasts feel really heavy or sort of muscly or something when I touch them, and some other times they feel quite deflated like there is nothing in them again.

Ok, so that is enough rambling for now, better go and do my massage, will make sure I don't spill the oil this time!