24-05-2012, 11:52 PM
Quick update. Pregnancy test result from three weeks ago was positive. Didn't want to say anything here until I was sure about how I felt etc. Etc. Because I'm fed up of bombarding people with my indecisiveness. Anyway, about a week ago I started bleeding extremely heavily. I took another pregnancy test today and the result was negative. I don't know how or why. Stress maybe. I don't know, maybe it's for the best.
I think the only thing that I changed in the last week was starting back at all the sports I used to do and doing a lot of physical work during the day. I could have overdone it. I've booked in at the doctor's the day after tomorrow to see what they say.
Everyones' comments over the past month gave me a lot to think about. I'm still with my partner and things are still better than they ever have been. I have no idea how or why. It's like he's suddenly grown up. The only thing wrong with our relationship now is I still have all the same hang ups about my body. Kind of hard to have a normal functioning relationship when I hate him touching me intimately.
On an NBE note, I have run out of everything except my nib fab bust fix. It doesn't work half as well without PM. I really notice a difference without my PM spray or tablets. I can't afford anymore just yet because I have to save at the moment.
My boobs haven't fallen below a 34D which is great. Well, the left one is more of a large C but I'm overflowing all C cups.
Anyhow, this update wasn't half as quick as I intended but I've run out of things to say now. Feeling thoroughly down, going to see if I can find a fennel tea bag lying around and then go to bed.
I think the only thing that I changed in the last week was starting back at all the sports I used to do and doing a lot of physical work during the day. I could have overdone it. I've booked in at the doctor's the day after tomorrow to see what they say.
Everyones' comments over the past month gave me a lot to think about. I'm still with my partner and things are still better than they ever have been. I have no idea how or why. It's like he's suddenly grown up. The only thing wrong with our relationship now is I still have all the same hang ups about my body. Kind of hard to have a normal functioning relationship when I hate him touching me intimately.
On an NBE note, I have run out of everything except my nib fab bust fix. It doesn't work half as well without PM. I really notice a difference without my PM spray or tablets. I can't afford anymore just yet because I have to save at the moment.
My boobs haven't fallen below a 34D which is great. Well, the left one is more of a large C but I'm overflowing all C cups.
Anyhow, this update wasn't half as quick as I intended but I've run out of things to say now. Feeling thoroughly down, going to see if I can find a fennel tea bag lying around and then go to bed.