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Hi everyone, I thought I would come on here and touch base as I noticed some of you had PM'd me with support(that means so much, I apologise I havnt had the strength to reply)
My Oma ended up passing, she was in a complete vegetative state, unable to move, unable to speak, and progressively worsened to the point we were advised by the medical team to help her be at ease with Morphine. It was an incredibly hard decision, but she had absolutely no quality of life anymore after the stroke and my Oma was always one to say she never wants to end up in such a state, so we ultimately did the right thing for her. It's been an extremely heartbreaking couple weeks, everyone around me has told me to keep trying to function and to keep trying to find happiness in things that usually do that for me because my Oma only ever wanted me to smile, the bond we shared was like no other person had with her, being I was her favourite granddaughter, it has been a very heavy loss for me. I have been doing my best to function, eat, occupy my mind etc, we are awaiting collection of her ashes, and soon she will be back with us exactly where she only ever wanted to be, so this will bring me some comfort as I know for certain she will be watching over me as I am a huge believer in spirits and an afterlife of some sort and she was a very firm believer of God.
As I said I have been doing everything I can to function and occupy my mind, this has included my program as it does bring me joy, along with gaming, binging tv series, shopping and so on, so I have been heavy on my program again for about a week and a half now with some very slight tweaks to my program but mostly the exact same, these small tweaks are the following, 1500mg MSM at day ASWELL as the 1500mg night dosage I was already taking, and then I have been enthralling myself into researching TCM(Traditional Chinese Medicine) in which had brought me to starting a circulation and beauty type program with regularly drinking a tea made of Dried Jujube(Chinese Red Date), Dried Longan, and Dried Ginger, I have been studying TCM for some time now alongside my love for regular herbal medicine, as it's very complex learning about Qi, Yang(heat) and Yin(cold), I had realised I am seemingly quite Yang deficient, as I always have cold feet/hands, fatigue, insomnia, depression, anxiety, digestive issues on and off, and so on, and this has been the case for my whole life, so I am working on warming up my body starting with this simple but very delicious and powerful tea. Ginger and Longan are completely non hormonal, with both not containing any phytoestrogens, however Jujube has slightly estrogenic compounds, but regardless a huge array of benefits same as the first two. This tea is incredible for nourishing and tonifying depleted Qi(vital energy or life force) which is very depleted when you are yang(heat) deficient aswell as nourishing blood, this tea boosts circulation big time, fights inflammation, is extremely beneficial to digestive health, has great skin beautifying properties(the women commonly drink this as a beauty tea in China and Korea), boosts immune system, is rich in Vitamin C/antioxidants/iron, has anxiolytic/calming/sleep boosting properties which have been proven in studies, along with other benefits aswell. I make this tea the proper traditional way rather than buying pre packaged in a tea bag as it's easier to get a more potent, portioned and good quality tea this way. I bring to the boil in a pot 1.5L of water on the stove, I chop up 25 dried longan pulps, 8 dried jujube(thinly sliced), and grab a handful of dried ginger(less than a handful if you have big hands as this may be just too much, dried ginger is very potent in taste), I add these to the boiling water and boil for a couple minutes, before turning down the heat and letting simmer for 25 minutes, this allows for all properties to fully infuse and bring out the full flavour and benefits. The result is a very potent health packed sweet but spicy/warming tea, I find it to be very comforting which I'll take anything comforting right now. So yes the tea and the doubled dosage of MSM is all that's changed, otherwise my program is still the exact same.
I have grown abit more since I last posted but I won't talk about that just yet and will post again when I have a bigger update. For now I am just keeping myself occupied and focusing on accepting and living without my Oma. I have also managed to completely stay true and solid with my having quit smoking, even with everything that's happened I still hadn't touched even one smoke, I know my Oma would be proud as she always wanted me to quit, I am very proud of me myself. Today marks just over 3 weeks quit cold turkey, and I am never going back.
