[caitemh]

Good afternoon! Dunno if anyone knows me, I lurked for a while last year and finally gave in and began my program last august.
I left my BF of 2 1/2 years in march, and with him I slowed on my program. Not entirely intentional, but I was lacking motivation, and I felt like my body image issues stemmed from his pornography addiction.
I had made myself the promise on Aug.25/13 that Id give myself a whole year of dedication to growing my breasts.

Aug.25/14 came by quite fast on me, and I felt like a failure because I gave up on my promise to myself. I stopped 4 months early.

Three days ago I decided to jump back onto my breast program. Not all at once, mind you. But I'm in a place in my life where I am much happier, so I figure this is going to be perfect for me.

I missed my connection I had with myself when I would massage or pump. It was truly the only time I had completely for myself. I miss waking up in the mornings and seeing my swelling, noticing my difference. I miss the absolute pride I feel when my breasts start filling in my bras. I've missed everything about it (well, maybe not all of the herbs! ;P)

To begin, I'm simply going to be doing a 15 min massage in the morning with flaxseed oil, massage in the evening, noogle for 1 hour and finish with 10 minute massage.

For herbals, I'm not going to start fast with anything. I don't even know if I'll be trying PM again for a while. Who knows.
So far I've been just taking morning doses:
1000mg MSM
500mg Vit C
1000mg Saw Palmetto
610mg Fenugreek
multivitamin + others that have nothing to do with NBE
I will soon begin to drink 1 cup a day of spearmint tea as well as fennel seed tea.

I've been doing sapien med's binaural beats for breast enhancement, estrogen and HGH.
I also will not be using a measuring tape. Instead I will be keeping my own photo log to track my progress like I have done in the past. I still love going through all my photos and seeing my changes!

I have felt so inadequate for so long, but now that I'm not with someone who is damaging my self esteem, I can focus on myself for me. My new man has been telling me since I told him my program, that I'm fine the way I am. He doesnt want me to change, but this isnt for him. This is for me.

I'm sorry about this long winded post. I'll post some of my progress pictures throughout the last year for anyone interested.

[caitemh]

Here is a collaboration of some of my shots.

There's many missing between my first day and december, as well as between december and march. I didn't have a ton of growth during that time. And it's not really relevant anyway now


but anyway, here you go!

   

[charrr]

That is a really interesting post. They do definitely change from here and there!

[Xiao_hoa]

Your breasts were beautiful then as they are now. I can see the fluctuation in growth in all six pictures. The February 1 picture looked the fullest, although it might had been taken right after pumping. But overall size and shape is lovely. They can only get better with your NBE regimen.

Your story is interesting as I find most of us do have self esteem issues. Whether we are strong on the outside or not, we still have some insecurities. I'm glad you're now with someone who appreciates you the way you are. I'm in that kind of relationship also. I feel very fortunate. But as you said, your doing this for you. That should be the reason why we're here. We should do this for ourselves and no one else.

I wish you much success!

[caitemh]

Thank you for your replies.

I'm very happy to be doing this again, for me. For the moments that I brush my arm up against my once non existent side boob. For the full hands I feel when I touch my chest. For the pride I have in myself when I see the changes. I love it.


I just began birth control for the sake of regulating my period. I had 4 months of no NBE and my cycles were all over the place. I was getting my period two weeks late, or early. It was a disaster. I'm about 5 days into my dual hormone bc, and I'm feeling good. My breasts seem to be getting almost squishier, and more plump.

My boyfriend is noticing the changes already.

My pumping hasn't been religious, but I try to at least every second day for an hour.

Today I'm going to try and spend most of my work hours with my binaural beats going, in order to distract myself! My dog is gone in for neutering today and I'm all nervous. Hahaha.

But I shall keep going!

[Wishin]

You had some fantastic results in the past so you will get them again I'm sad about the ex and what he did to your self esteem but happy to hear you left him and found someone better. Yay for you!