[solome]

i just saw this. i almost wish i hadn't because now i can't stop my tears. there are memories of love and of loss buried deep inside me. times when i've prayed over my pets. i've had dogs before but for many years have had cats. i can't stand seeing them hurt and when i've lost them it tears me to pieces and i get so empty it hurts. i've tried praying over them and placing healing hands and pleading in prayer for their return to health. fuckk, i can't stop the tears. i've wondered about ever having another pet, wondering if i have the strength to stand the loss but i have 3 cats now and every day when i leave for work and they're just all staring at me, i tell them i'm coming back soon and to be good. and when i return, i'm so thankful for them. the thought of one day losing them makes me wonder why but in the end, i think i know. i think of how much love they brought into my insignificant little life and i feel so lucky they were given to me for awhile and maybe, maybe, i'll see them again. i'm sorry peggy but i'm also glad that you were one of the lucky ones because you loved and they loved back and that's a wonderful gift for any life. solomé