21-04-2010, 01:40
Wow, your story is very inspiring and touching to me. Because though I cannot even begin to relate completely, I can relate some. I believe I was full term (I was adopted and when I talked to my real mom she wasn't sure but I was born very small). I was always smaller than most people, I'm to this day short and petite. And I have been through alot in my life, at 14 I was date raped by a boyfriend and I had a miscarriage, scared to tell anyone in my family, I went to a teen clinic, they then told me to go to my regular doctor. I just told my mom I wasn't feeling good and needed to go. While in the doctors office I told the doctor why I was really there after he promised that they aren't suppose to tell anyone due to privacy laws. He checked me out and confirmed I had a miscarriage and told me that I never fully developed down there, my uterus is narrow and underdeveloped I am not meant to even have kids period. I was told if I get pregnant, which would be rare, that I would miscarry within 3 months. I got pregnant at 16 by a boyfriend I was with for a total of 4 years and I gave birth to my son at 17.
I wrote about this on another section of the forum, after the birth of my son, the doctor sowed me up incorrectly causing nerve damage. Like you, I couldn't even be touched without excruciating pain. I couldn't have sex period for a year or so after my son's birth. Doctors said that their is no cure for nerve damage and that it would have to work itself out. I started doing research and the best thing I found to help with my nerve problem (which now and then does cause sex to be painful) is kegel exercises. As long as I do kegels everyday, I don't have painful sex. I notice when I stop doing them that it starts to become painful again. I know your situation is much different, but maybe it could help? The kegels strengthen the muscles down there, and help protect the nerves. Also with painful sex sometimes it's caused from lack of lubrication, you might want to try using a lube, I suggest astroglide, it's what I find best. KY in my opinion sucks, period. I like the liquid astroglide. When I don't get wet enough naturally, that's what we use.
I think it's wonderful you have a boyfriend who loves you no matter what, most males would not stay with a woman who can't have sex. I mean of course you can please him sexually other ways, but still, most males wouldn't stay in the relationship. My husband is the same way, when it's painful for me, we stop and he just cuddles me. Where as most males would get made for me causing "blue balls" or being a "tease". My husband has told me if it ever happened again where it would be years I couldn't do anything, he wouldn't care that he loves me for me, not for what's between my legs.
Congrats on the modeling career! I use to be a fashion/photoshoot model, as you can imagine I'm too short for runway lol. Just don't let them tell you you are too fat. When I modeled I was 5'1 and about 98 pounds and they told me I was too fat and needed to lose weight. And I was a size 0 or 1! You just do you, there are plenty of models that aren't size 0's and they are beautiful.
I hope this time around with NBE gives you what you want and wish you the best of luck!
I wrote about this on another section of the forum, after the birth of my son, the doctor sowed me up incorrectly causing nerve damage. Like you, I couldn't even be touched without excruciating pain. I couldn't have sex period for a year or so after my son's birth. Doctors said that their is no cure for nerve damage and that it would have to work itself out. I started doing research and the best thing I found to help with my nerve problem (which now and then does cause sex to be painful) is kegel exercises. As long as I do kegels everyday, I don't have painful sex. I notice when I stop doing them that it starts to become painful again. I know your situation is much different, but maybe it could help? The kegels strengthen the muscles down there, and help protect the nerves. Also with painful sex sometimes it's caused from lack of lubrication, you might want to try using a lube, I suggest astroglide, it's what I find best. KY in my opinion sucks, period. I like the liquid astroglide. When I don't get wet enough naturally, that's what we use.
I think it's wonderful you have a boyfriend who loves you no matter what, most males would not stay with a woman who can't have sex. I mean of course you can please him sexually other ways, but still, most males wouldn't stay in the relationship. My husband is the same way, when it's painful for me, we stop and he just cuddles me. Where as most males would get made for me causing "blue balls" or being a "tease". My husband has told me if it ever happened again where it would be years I couldn't do anything, he wouldn't care that he loves me for me, not for what's between my legs.
Congrats on the modeling career! I use to be a fashion/photoshoot model, as you can imagine I'm too short for runway lol. Just don't let them tell you you are too fat. When I modeled I was 5'1 and about 98 pounds and they told me I was too fat and needed to lose weight. And I was a size 0 or 1! You just do you, there are plenty of models that aren't size 0's and they are beautiful.
I hope this time around with NBE gives you what you want and wish you the best of luck!