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Do boyfriends count? :L He found my ainterol powder in my room once and was unimpressed, and was worried I could harm myself with it (he's a biologist so appreciates the complexity of hormones etc). i think he was right a bit as that regime didn't seem to work for me, it was just a shot in the dark and my bodyand mind were not in a good state. I felt ashamed because I thought it drew attention to the fact I was unhappy with my boobs and thought it would get him thinking about how they were inferior. A few months after that, I started a less obsessive program and didn't tell him about it. I've put on weight, calmed down a lot and feel more at ease with my body. He's made quite a few comments about how my boobs are bigger, but I think I've got away with it I don't think I'd care too much if he knew, because it's not as life-or-death to me now as it was before, but I keep it on the DL because it's my 'me' time - I don't think the parts of my day where I'm in my dressing gown in need of a shower with one boob swollen up in a strange contraption stinking of flax oil are really when i'm at my most alluring :L