[Cheryl1989]

Hi Anastasia, its hard to know where to begin with how i have changed since i started living as a woman, somethings are so small i dont realise untill someone comments on it like how i stand and do certain things, im not sure why i do things different it just feels normal, maybe my boobs and shape effect how i hold myself and i know i watch how i bend over now as i dont want the whole world looking at my boobs lol or if they fall out my top or something lol. Im not as self conscious anymore but when my boobs got quite large i felt everyone was looking at them and i tended to cross my arms alot over my boobs and i was very conscious of my big butt but im alot more comfortable now i tend to let my body go where it wants and just get on with things lol. I do notice men looking at me and my boobs lol and in away i get quite flatterd by it but some men seem really sleazy and make my skin crawl but overall i dont mind men looking aslong as they dont touch, i have to admit i get really angry if im out clubbing and men just grab where they want, i have gave a few slaps for that lol. And as far as my sexuality goes i still think women are attractive but not in the same way its hard to explain, and i do like men now, well some lol that was a gradual thing that sort of just came on me lol i wont say how i realised i liked men its too embaresing lol but i really like them now, which was hard for me to deal with to start with but im very comfortable with it now. The way i think different now is hard to explain, according to my sister and friends i have become more outgoing and flirty, less agressive as i seem to have alot more patiance, but i have been told i have become very bitchy over the last couple of months but i dont realise i am so im not sure on that one lol, im less competetive then i use to be and tend to enjoy things better because of it, and i am very emotional, i tend to swell up really easy, if someone nice to me or horrible i start to cry lol it really anoys me actually. The other deeper changes are hard to know exactly how ive changed but alot of my friends have said my pesonality has changed alot but i dont know how. This will sound stupid but while i have more patiance my attention span is terrible now lol i loose interest in things or find myself thinking of something else all the time and people have started to call me ignorant but i cant help it, it just happens lol. Ok an example of my thought patterns changing, these are stupid things i can think of that i know have changed, i look at peoples shoes all the time now lol dont know why but i have to see what they are wearing oh yeah lol and nails, i can spend a good couple of hours trying my clothes and shoes and things on and really enjot it lol i can sit and watch a romantic film and love it lol i hated them before, i still like watching sport but find myself checking out the players alot lol and i hardly think about sex now compared to atleast once minute as a man lol. Ok well theres some things and im so sorry ive put so much on here i hope i dont bore you with it lol but please feel free to ask any questions, im a really open person and i actually find all my changes really fascinating, there is so much difference between men and women. And Nessa you can ask me anytime about how men think, as can anyone but not all men think the same lol well maybe they do a little lol. Thanks Everyone
Hugs Cheryl xxxx