[BonitaDDs]

Yes I know your angry/sad but its not his fault you don't feel confidence you cant expect anyone to give you confidence you need to find that on your own I think it seems you are taking his normal actions the wrong way.
Some men need a little time with only friends, has he ever gone down on you? Some dont know how my bf had never gone down on anyone before me but we talk about everything together so he does now like he show me how he likes head from me.
You can't just expect to make him horny if you keep stressing him out about sex you need to be loving and sexy for him to want it maybe he is tired from work?
If you keep initiating he isn't going to... Try waiting for him to initiate even if it takes a day or two be sexy not pushy he could be bored of not having to 'work' a little for sex don't just give it make him want it.
Don't do anything you don't want to do with your body, he obviously likes it if he's with you.
Sorry if its not what you want to hear but my answer from your post.