It sounds like you are having a difficult time handling stress, and your upset is keeping you in a stressed state. So the maca is very good for you!! Maca supports your adrenal glands, which can become fatigued and not working their best if you are in a state of constant stress. Vitamin C also supports the adrenal glands, as does b6. I'd dose high with the vit c definitely (really high, its a water soluble vitamin so you don't have to worry about ODing with this oen), and take a b complex vitamin
You may want to try meditation, specifically metta meditation which is lovingkindness meditation ( http://www.audiodharma.org/ has some wonderful guided metta meditations, as well as some talks on it and the purpose and what it can do for your life - consider checking it out, I love these tracks! It is so calming to listen to them speak, even the tracks that aren't a guided meditation) .
And just remember to be gentle with yourself, that audiodharma site has some talks about angry thoughts too, and they basically just tell you to start watching your thoughts, and noticing them, and once you start observing them you're actually pulling yourself out of the anger because you are not feeling the anger anymore because you are watching it. They explain it much better than I can.
Umm back to what I was saying about being gentle with yourself, this means that if you get angry, when you notice it, take 5 deep breaths and say to yourself 5-10 times "I am full of love and positivity" or anything kind like that. You don't have to wait until you get upset to say it, you can write it on your hand and say it to yourself everytime you look at it. Or choose one of your rings or bracelets to be your "love and positivity" jewel and bless it, have a little ceremony whatever for it, and then wear it- and when you look at it, remember it's purpose and say the "I am full of love and positivity" thing. Or "I am warm & bursting with love"
And when you see your mom or sister and they walk into the room, you can think to yourself "I love my mama so much, I am so grateful to have her in my life" . And try to send feelings of love towards her. Love is one of those wonderful things wherein when you give it away, that is when it comes back to you.
If you feel yourself becoming upset, put allll of your focus onto your breathing for the next ten min, and try not to forget! I always forget that I am trying to focus on my breathing when I try to focus on my breathing lol...... it distracts you, and you'll notice that your breathing will speed up when you are upset or anxious, slowing it down will calm you. If your family is nearby, just leave the room to take a minute to yourself, or ask them kindly to give you a minute to yourself, and remember your breathing that is the big thing.
You can set an intention for your day first thing in the morning, like "today I am going to stay calm and in the moment" and hang quotes that will make you smile somewhere in your room, and read them every morning when you wake up before starting your day!
Sorry for my repetitiveness in this post lol hope that helps!!!
You may want to try meditation, specifically metta meditation which is lovingkindness meditation ( http://www.audiodharma.org/ has some wonderful guided metta meditations, as well as some talks on it and the purpose and what it can do for your life - consider checking it out, I love these tracks! It is so calming to listen to them speak, even the tracks that aren't a guided meditation) .
And just remember to be gentle with yourself, that audiodharma site has some talks about angry thoughts too, and they basically just tell you to start watching your thoughts, and noticing them, and once you start observing them you're actually pulling yourself out of the anger because you are not feeling the anger anymore because you are watching it. They explain it much better than I can.
Umm back to what I was saying about being gentle with yourself, this means that if you get angry, when you notice it, take 5 deep breaths and say to yourself 5-10 times "I am full of love and positivity" or anything kind like that. You don't have to wait until you get upset to say it, you can write it on your hand and say it to yourself everytime you look at it. Or choose one of your rings or bracelets to be your "love and positivity" jewel and bless it, have a little ceremony whatever for it, and then wear it- and when you look at it, remember it's purpose and say the "I am full of love and positivity" thing. Or "I am warm & bursting with love"
And when you see your mom or sister and they walk into the room, you can think to yourself "I love my mama so much, I am so grateful to have her in my life" . And try to send feelings of love towards her. Love is one of those wonderful things wherein when you give it away, that is when it comes back to you.
If you feel yourself becoming upset, put allll of your focus onto your breathing for the next ten min, and try not to forget! I always forget that I am trying to focus on my breathing when I try to focus on my breathing lol...... it distracts you, and you'll notice that your breathing will speed up when you are upset or anxious, slowing it down will calm you. If your family is nearby, just leave the room to take a minute to yourself, or ask them kindly to give you a minute to yourself, and remember your breathing that is the big thing.
You can set an intention for your day first thing in the morning, like "today I am going to stay calm and in the moment" and hang quotes that will make you smile somewhere in your room, and read them every morning when you wake up before starting your day!
Sorry for my repetitiveness in this post lol hope that helps!!!