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So my next post I am going to make my program completely so I can start when I have money (seeing as BC didnt work for me, I wont have to worry so much about hormonal over dose)

So I wanted to share what I'd like..

what I had & what I have now..

The girl in the blue tank top is kind of what I have now when I am in a bra when I am swelling but not without.. thats what my chest was like before. If I could get back to that, I will be happy.

audrina grace is kind of what my chest looks like now, but if I could get the the shape she has I would like it more ^^;
& shion utsunomiya would be just for fun haha but I dont think that would happen..
*yes these are porn stars so heed that if you google them lol*

I also noticed, with my boob pain / since the rupture.. I noticed my skin is a little red -__- ugh, I havent broken out bad but my skin just looks a bit different.. I hope that changes soon.. I was thinking, the cyst effected my hormones so much.. I think it lowered them. that is why my breast shrunk. my cyst always hurt and I bled when I ovulated, when my hormones are at their peek.. I think the dose of hormones in the BC is what caused it to rupture. The cyst might have caused low estrogen/progesterone in me to "survive" (this is just a guess) but what other reason would there be when my hormones rose for the cyst to hurt? and when I took hormones it just couldnt take it and it exploded on me -_-

I am wondering if the lack of hormones is what made my skin clearer.. I am kind of worried the cyst effected my skin to be clearer? and it might be worse now? I am praying that isnt the case.. ugh. I will DIE.

So far my skin is okay but I am watching it..

So.. in the first photo(blue tank only) that is me in 2011 before my hormonal issue.. I was a D. the next set of photos I kind of choose pictures that best resembled my own chest but what I would like to get out of NBE (the girl in the light blue tank is almost what I have/ideal/what I want to stay). and the 3rd photo is me now.