27-04-2015, 16:12
There are no counselors in the area that know a damn thing about the subjects of sexuality, transgenderism and transition, so I come to you all with my story.
I am a 28 year old genetic male, who has been cross-dressing since the age of 5. I always dreamed of being able to transition to female, wished I was born female, etc.
When I hit puberty, I became distressed, and stressed. I would cry myself to sleep, I would call myself a freak in the mirror, and I would avoid mirrors if I were unclothed. I loathed my body. I hated being male. As I got older, I accepted the fact that my body is male, and when I started to show interest in sex, females were my only choice. I started to show more happiness in being male, acting manly, growing a goatee, showing interest in "manly" activities like hunting, automotive work etc.
Now I am 28 and my mind is going all bonkers again. I can't decide if I am male or female and it's driving me crazy. I'm starting to accept that I may be a little bisexual, I'm showing more interest in "feminine" activities like shopping and personal care and grooming, and I'm wanting more than anything to be female in both mind and body. BUT there's a side to me that still wants to be a manly male man, and the 2 sides are really conflicting internally. WHO AM I?!
I am a 28 year old genetic male, who has been cross-dressing since the age of 5. I always dreamed of being able to transition to female, wished I was born female, etc.
When I hit puberty, I became distressed, and stressed. I would cry myself to sleep, I would call myself a freak in the mirror, and I would avoid mirrors if I were unclothed. I loathed my body. I hated being male. As I got older, I accepted the fact that my body is male, and when I started to show interest in sex, females were my only choice. I started to show more happiness in being male, acting manly, growing a goatee, showing interest in "manly" activities like hunting, automotive work etc.
Now I am 28 and my mind is going all bonkers again. I can't decide if I am male or female and it's driving me crazy. I'm starting to accept that I may be a little bisexual, I'm showing more interest in "feminine" activities like shopping and personal care and grooming, and I'm wanting more than anything to be female in both mind and body. BUT there's a side to me that still wants to be a manly male man, and the 2 sides are really conflicting internally. WHO AM I?!