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[Notice:] Small Rant - feel free to ignore

I've been feeling a little discouraged lately. I know I have gotten 2 cups of growth but they still seem so small to me and it took me a long time to get this growth - longer than some on this site.

But then I was thinking, you know what? I HAVE grown! I should be thankful for even growing one cup! It just shows that nbe is possible with patience and if I am a little more patient I can get them even bigger.

I think it also has to do with your own outlook on life and perspective. I realized all of this stuff when I was looking back at old pictures over the last couple of years. I didn't realize how much my breasts have actually grown and how different they look now! Even my butt has gotten bigger which I did not notice either. My friends a few weeks ago actually commented on it and I thought really? It makes me want to try to get it a little bigger now too actually.

But back to the perspective concept - I am a very competitive person and I think a lot of the times I find myself comparing myself to those around me. Well, I have two very close friends and always compared myself to one of them. I always felt she had larger breasts even without doing any nbe and I was jealous. But now that I look back on our pictures, I am realizing her breasts were actually smaller than mine a year into nbe. Back then, I felt like mine were so small and that all my work was for nothing because I thought hers were still bigger. But this wasn't true! I had grown bigger than her after only a year!
But then this year she got breast implants and recently we were at the beach together and I just felt so small compared to her even though hers are fake. I was sad that I've put nearly 3 years into this and she just went and bought them and had them after one night!
I felt like my breasts were extremely small! Now that I have looked back on those other pictures, I realize a lot of it is my own mind. And I think that is one of the issues that is holding me back from growing faster. I need to not be in competition with others but with myself. Because compared to my old self I am definitely winning!
So from now on I will TRY to stop comparing myself to others and grow for my own self!!

Also, earlier this year, one of my boyfriend's friends said a mean comment to me. He is really stupid though - like dumb - just doesn't think. I guess he felt like his feelings were hurt about something not even that I said and he said something to me like "you dont' even have a chest." There were two other people there and even they were silent after he said it kinda like yeah her chest is small but we weren't going to say anything - it was just an awkward moment. It of course bothered me and I got into a heated argument with him later about something else then my boyfriend was asking what was wrong and I told him what his friend had said earlier and I guess I was upset from the other argument because I teared up a little too and usually I never cry - I consider myself to be very strong! I guess this comment has been getting to me these last few months and sort of brought on this discouraged state I am in. I have grown but I don't feel like it is that much and it makes me sad that some people still clearly see me as being small chested. But I think I need to realize that he has his own issues and probably wanted to say something - anything- maybe even something not true - to hurt me so he could feel better about himself! I just try to keep telling myself that at least I have pretty breasts even if they aren't the perfect size for me YET. But I am getting there and this won't stop me. If anything it makes me want to grow faster and makes me want to try harder!

I guess as a late new years resolution, I would like to surround myself with more positive individuals that build each up and not bring each other down.

Also, thinking back, even another one of my boyfriend's friend said (in a non-creepy way and in private to my boyfriend lol) that I have a "bangin" body! So that makes me feel good. I don't think people really thought of me like that before nbe. I feel curvier now. Also, this last year,I have noticed actually quite a bit that men's eyes drift down towards my cleavage. this didn't happen to me before EVER. I guess it means i have something to look at now.

Sorry for this long post, but just wanted to share in case someone else was feeling the same way. And my advice to you is to take LOTS of pictures. I love looking back now. And don't just take "progress" pics in the same angle and up close. I have these too and they never inspire me. It's sorta hard to tell how much progress I have had in up close pictures. Try to take full body pictures in different bikinis, in different clothes, with different angles! It's fun to see how much change has happened.
And finally, we are all growing for a reason - let the reason be for yourself <3 and don't let anyone negative get to you!
Happy growing ladies!! I know you all will reach your goals, the question is not if but when