[koyasha]

Hi Bobbi, thank you very much for your congratulations and your nice words!
You are right and there also have been many 'new life' occasions for me, but there is nothing holding me back the way my boobs do, they do not only make me feel ugly, but also unnormal. I have avoided them for so long, wearing a bra even at night so I wouldn't have to feel the asymmetry when turning around, the only time I can't 'escape' from them is when I am in the shower. 

I do not plan on giving up, as I have to live with them for the rest of my life anyway, and I'd rather feel more comfortable in my own body and more confident around others slowly, than never. I am sick of this hiding from even myself cause I can't stand to see them.

It is very hard to be nice to them and to love them, as I have always hated them. I used to self-harm when I was younger and also did it to my breasts, I even tried to kind of burn one of them by pouring drain-o over her, along with warm water. This needs to change, learning to love them will be a very very long process, but I am ready to start the journey!
My Vitex arrived today, this is a good thing. 

I have to be careful not to overnoogle, as this is something I can totally see myself doing, not afraid to hurt myself and just mad, I might just pump till my boob falls off, so thank you for mentioning this again!

I will check out the massage threads while pumping (I like to do read up things about massages and NBE while doing that)!

Can't wait to meet the others and I might even start my own thread and post pics if I am brave.

Kind regards,
Sandy