[Tiger_Lily13]

Hey Everyone,

I've been on here off and on since 2017. Had two accounts, left the first one due to a number of reasons. It might just be my age and my circumstances but I've been feeling really depressed. I have a therapist and plenty of people who support me (though all but my boyfriend lives far away from me which is probably part of my depression), but I wish i felt like I used to when I was a teenager. I mean there's plenty I'm happy to leave behind but I'm about to hit quarter life and I just remember being so hopefully everyday when I woke up because I felt like there was still potential ahead of me. I know nbe is probably making this worse in some way. Realizing that my potential to grow naturally is gone and now I have to work really hard to produce results. I feel like that with the rest of life too. Does anyone relate to this at all? Do you guys have any ways to cope? Positive affirmations perhaps?

Thanks for listening to me!

Hi! 
Im really sorry you are going through this. Admittedly, Im experiencing a similar situation, so you are definitely not alone. I believe that it's the result of a combination of things. Given your current circumstances, NBE will most likely exacerbate emotions, so it's perfectly logical you could be experiencing depression. I experience a mixture of anxiety and depression and have noticed one or the other worsens sometimes, as I'm essentially adjusting hormones through NBE. Im also going through a very difficult period in my life, and as we all know, stress/negative emotions impact hormones. I try to cope through self-awareness and reminding myself that hormones are powerful substances that can significantly affect my mood. Remaining positive, reminding myself of what I have rather than what I don't, and maintaining a big picture perspective often helps. We often get caught up in the daily details of life and hyperfocusing on such can leave one feeling defeated. Just know you aren't alone! You will get through this rough patch and each chapter of your life can be beautiful, but we can't enjoy them if we are focusing on the rear-view mirror. Trust me, Im often guilty of this.
I hope I was able to help a little! Stay strong and know things ALWAYS get better.