[Uglyinsomniac]

Firstly I am SO sorry you are having such troubles and such bad body image/self confidence issues  " alt="" title=""> I can relate to the self hate part I have struggled with this on and off my whole life.... As far as what to take and when, usually fenugreek should be taken with or after food as its health benefits aid digestion, as for other herbs generally you should take them half hour before food or 2 hours after eating to get the best absorption and benefits, seeing as you have tried PM, Fenugreek and Maca with no results or pains it sounds like you might actually need progesterone rather than estrogen! If this is the case you should get yourself some bio identical progesterone(prescribed) or use herbs like vitex(chaste berry) or wild yam to balance your hormones and increase progesterone, if this doesnt work you have the other option of trying bovine ovary which contains both estrogen and progesterone however this tends to get the ovaries and female reproductive system working and considering you already have heavy bleeding I would use this with caution. Hope I helped atleast a little sending hugs! X

Only problem with getting prescribed progesterone is I can see all of my medical providers denying me the medication just for body issues. I wonder if I can maybe get a birth control containing progesterone? I am due for my well woman exam next month and the person I see there is the same person who prescribes my current birth control to me. I looked up progesterone and found a cream containing it. Could that possibly work? I wonder if I should just ditch the fenugreek and maca root all together. I've already stopped buying PM. My birth control already has estrogen in it so you're probably right when you say my problem is lack of progesterone. 

I even thought about getting a fat graft but unfortunately I live in a rural area and it doesn't look like anybody nearby does breast fat transfer. And perhaps my research is off but it looks like it's almost the same cost as breast implants. I know it's not permanent, but I am going to go through with a vampire breast lift since it's not super costly and there is a good clinic in my city that does the procedure. They will also allow me a payment plan which is a bonus so I don't have to pay it all up front. If I ever somehow can accumulate enough I will consider a fat transfer more. I make less than the minimum wage and have bills to pay so saving money is difficult. 

I will also consider the other herbal remedies you mentioned. Thank you very much for your help. I really appreciate it. <3