22-05-2023, 06:52
(This post was last modified: 22-05-2023, 07:19 by Lara's Lcups.)
A rhetoric question, am I woman enough to post on this forum? Am I worthy enough for it? Am I accepted here?
Or am I too delusional or in need to justify myself? Because I do need to do so... I do need justification to feel alright because I was shut down, forced into living as something I'm not for a very long time, I was bullied massively for "being a girl" when I was kid which left deep mental scars. On top of hating my body being so wrong for so long time, I was also body shamed for the things that were right and for not truly fitting in.
Now that I've been finally getting to actual answers to my problems, its goddamn guaranteed that I will talk about it all. And I know damn well what my experience in life has been and I know my body the best as I've been inhabiting it for nearly forty years. Who's to tell what I am if its not me? No one in the world knows how this is like spot on with perfection unlike I do, others only know what they see, hear and what I tell them. The same way I can't 100% know anyone elses experience.
But I'm not out there judging them and bashing them for being different!
Gosh this is really annyoing feeling uncertain if I'm even woman enough to be here. I was really afraid for the longest time to even ask if I'm welcome. And almost right away I'm full of doubt about my validiy as a woman. I'm going to love the ignore function I bet. Also who ever feels that I'm not woman enough or worth anything, just ignore me, reading my threads is completely voluntary. I thought it would be a fun start here, but if I'm not woman enough to post, I can go away too.
EDIT:
Calling out poeple for being delusional and what ever based on ones own experience is delusional if something is, its simple minded and narrow sighted thinking because every person out there has a unique life experience and identity and our bodies too are all unique. And we all are equally valuable and amazing regardless of our backgrounds. I didn't choose to be like this, I would rather just be another XX cis woman instead.
Or am I too delusional or in need to justify myself? Because I do need to do so... I do need justification to feel alright because I was shut down, forced into living as something I'm not for a very long time, I was bullied massively for "being a girl" when I was kid which left deep mental scars. On top of hating my body being so wrong for so long time, I was also body shamed for the things that were right and for not truly fitting in.
Now that I've been finally getting to actual answers to my problems, its goddamn guaranteed that I will talk about it all. And I know damn well what my experience in life has been and I know my body the best as I've been inhabiting it for nearly forty years. Who's to tell what I am if its not me? No one in the world knows how this is like spot on with perfection unlike I do, others only know what they see, hear and what I tell them. The same way I can't 100% know anyone elses experience.
But I'm not out there judging them and bashing them for being different!
Gosh this is really annyoing feeling uncertain if I'm even woman enough to be here. I was really afraid for the longest time to even ask if I'm welcome. And almost right away I'm full of doubt about my validiy as a woman. I'm going to love the ignore function I bet. Also who ever feels that I'm not woman enough or worth anything, just ignore me, reading my threads is completely voluntary. I thought it would be a fun start here, but if I'm not woman enough to post, I can go away too.
EDIT:
Calling out poeple for being delusional and what ever based on ones own experience is delusional if something is, its simple minded and narrow sighted thinking because every person out there has a unique life experience and identity and our bodies too are all unique. And we all are equally valuable and amazing regardless of our backgrounds. I didn't choose to be like this, I would rather just be another XX cis woman instead.