[Cheryl1989]

Hi everyone, this is not really NBE related so i am sorry but i need a little advice. As some of you will know i am male and i have always been a straight man, recently i have started to have a little interest in men, i dont know why. I still like woman just as much as i did before NBE but my attraction towards men has become strong. I have a very good male friend who i have been best friends with since a very young age, since my NBE we have become a little distant from each other but we are still good friends, last night we had a few drinks round his house and a laugh. He excepts me for who i am now but he still treats me as one of the guys and i dont mind this as long as we are still friends, since my NBE he has always asked to look at my boobs lol typical man. Only because i think he is fascinated by whats happened to me and i have always said no as its too embarresing for me and it would be too strange, and for ages its been like a joke between us, untill last night. We where talking and having a joke and i was a little merry and he said like he always does if he could look, he said its been months and you always say no and he wanted to see what had happened to me, i laughed and said you can see anyway without me taking my top off lol but he seemed really serious and a little hurt and he had never reacted this way before, he then said he felt we had drifted apart as friends and he misses how we use to be, he then said i dont trust him anymore. I felt terrible and he seemed quite upset, i said if he wants i will let him see what had happened to me but i would feel very uncomfortable with this but he said it would help him alot, so i took my top off and my bra, for a slight moment i felt embarresed but then i felt excited and a little turned on by this, he staired and smiled at me and he then asked some questions and i felt attracted to him, it was such an unusual feeling. He was like a gentleman and thanked me and said you can get dressed now and started laughing, but i really did not want too i wanted him to grab me lol. After i put my top back on he asked loads more questions and he seemed to understand me so much better and i dont understand why but now i think i have feelings towards him and i dont know how to deal with this situation. I am sorry to ask this on here but i have always got great advice from the lovely people on this forum and i dont want to mention this to any of my friends or family. Its all i can think about at the moment and i will be seeing him again tomorrow and i worry that my attraction towards him will show, so any advice is appreciated. Thanks everyone xxxx.