[Cheryl1989]

Hi everyone, thanks for your replys. This is a whole new experience for me and one i dont really want to be having. My friendship with this man does mean alot to me and he was one person i dreaded telling about what i was doing, and things have been strained between us since.I dont think we can ever be how we where as he does not take what i have done serious, i think he tries to deny that i have done this and he treats me almost the same as before i started NBE but its forced and comes across fake. I think i make him uncomfortable as when we speak on the phone he is alot better and it does not seem fake but when i am with him which is not alot now, he just seems different and uncomfortable which i can understand. A while ago we had a game of tennis like we always use too but it was not the same, he seemed to hold back as if i was not as good as i use to be and this was really anoying for me. But now i have these other feelings which i have never felt before and i think apart of me just wants to be close with him again as a friend but i do have an attraction to him and dont know how to switch it off. I cannot even look him in the eye at the moment so im not sure what to do here, i feel confused and im not sure what i am doing here its all new to me, i am struggling with my emotions lately and im having thoughts i never had before, my doctor has said its the hormones and i will get use to it and adjust but i am struggling. Anyway sorry to go on, thank you all so much for your advice. xxxx