[lovingmum]

Thank you for you're reply's.!

I have spoke to my son today and it has not gone very well!
We spoke for a few hour's and i found out more about my son in that time than i have through out the last 3 year's.

I did hope i could convince him to re-think what ever he has been doing but it is to late i fear!!!
I still do not understand what he has done and i am even more confused?
He has told me he does not what to be a woman and that this all started as a fascination. He cannot explain why and if i pushed the subject he fly's of the handle and the discussion turn's into a shouting match which is not what i want. I now feel even more hurt and worry over what is going on.

To make it worse the picture i had seen and shown in an earlier post was taken nearly a year ago and his development has from what i can see completed. I have seen many other picture's of my son's progress as he call's it and i am horrified. Yet he still seem's very calm about it all and has convinced me he is ok and has done all his research and had test's done!! Now i do not know if i believe that or not but i can only take his word for it.

I am in abit of a fluster over this and at the moment my son has agreed to be more open with me and i have promised to support him, which i will do but i still do not know why he has done this to his body? and i have no idea what to do next?

I am lost and confused as a mother, i love him but i cannot understand what he has done, being transexual would have atleast cleared it up and we could work together to get help, but what does fascination mean, this is serious and not an experiment he can reverse, which i have told him. I really believe he need's professional help.

Thank you for all you're advice!!!
Sam