[onicemile]

This has been a very depressing week, I got back to school and my mind is eaten by worries and laziness, the baccalauréat (diploma close to the high school graduation I guess) is coming soon and I'm not ready at all, while I'm also experiencing sentimental problems.

I think I skipped massage twice this week, didn't jog everyday, and went to sleep late each night as I was very moody. I also ran out of soy milk on monday and didn't bought some yet.

So my measurements stagnated:
Bust: 37.7" / 96cm +1cm
Overbust: 35" / 89cm no change
Underbust: 28.7" / 73cm

I first thought that my breast shrinked but I'm really overflowing my bras these days. That's weird because I'm not getting the same beautiful cleavage I used to have, but my breast are cut in two and my nipples try to escape, even if I loose the straps. Maybe that's because my upper part's still a bit empty... Though www.85b.org tells me that I'm a D/E cup now lol ! Well I'll see after my period if I need new bras.

About the food, I had the same attitude. I had a messy schedule so finally, I was eating three meals a day, but tried to eat less, not to put more weight on (especially since I wasn't exercising a lot) ... I think that's ok since I finally weight myself and got the same as two weeks ago.

Waist: 26.4" / 67cm no change
Weight: 137lbs / 62kg

Basically, I'm okay with my body now. I don't feel fat and my breast don't look ridiculously small to me anymore. But I'll continue NBE to reach the size I used to be. Also I guess it needs time for the results to be permanent, I'm too afraid of losing everything by stopping so I'll think of it later.

Same about the weight, like I said before, I'm not really bothered by the 3kg I've put on, but I would like to stay around 60kg, preventing any big weight gain now. Staying 62kg would be okay, but I'd prefer to get down to 59kg. I still don't know how to lose the weight, trapped between schedule and stress, but I think that rather than trying to apply the absurd 'two meals' that doesn't match with school days, I will eat three times a day and follow my hunger, just try not to eat until nausea (I do this often...).

So my updated program would be:

morning

• breakfast
  
• glass of milk
  
• fruit or vit C
  
• 4 brewer's yeast tablets
  
• 1 salmon oil + borage oil pill
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• 15 push-ups

midday

• lunch
  
• meat or anything has high protein in it

afternoon

• 1 glass of soy milk
  
• 1 cup of herbal tea (licorice, hops, fennel, aniseed)
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• 25 push-ups
  
• at least 30mn of jogging

evening

• birth control pill
  
• 4 brewer's yeast tablets
  
• dinner
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• 10mn of massage (chi massage in both directions, then what I feel like, some inspired by chiyomilk's)

Oh and just wanted to note that I have added to my cream some neutral lotion, to dilute the fennel and put some bitteralmond flavor to perfume it. There I fixed it !

And the salmon/borage oil tablets are working well, my skin is less dry already, but I got some acne, and I've read on here that fish oil could increase testosterone production, so well, I will take just one pill a day instead of two.

My period is coming on wednesday, I'm taking my last pill tonight, so I hope I won't lose too much grow and that this new routine will work well.

Finally, the pics. I know you can hardly see a difference but by looking them more closely, I discovered that the grow appears. Around the nipple: on the bottom, and on the outer face. Also the improvement of the shape really shows on the last two pictures, the asymmetry faded, my left breast seems to be less hanging and the right got bigger. I couldn't compare the sideway views because all the pics were taken different scale. I also wish I had taken pics in bras from the beginning..