27-10-2011, 03:38
Ah, thought I was right. The way you were talking sounded like the mindset of someone with OCD. I know it's not easy not to compulse at first, but it gets easier. Have you ever seen the show "Obsessed"?
My compulsions started early in life as a little kid, I would organize things by size, color and shape, sometimes alphabetically by name. I also had to have everything in even numbers. I would also have to have everything facing outward, what I mean by that is say I had baby dolls on a shelf, if one was sideways I would have to turn her facing forward. I'm the same way with things inside cabinets, they have to be facing forward. I use to also clean and organize for hours a day. Even cleaning things that had just been cleaned and didn't need it again. I also had a very long teeth cleaning regimen when I was younger, 20 min teeth cleanings twice per day and I had to brush for at least 1 minute everytime I drank or ate something. This of course caused problems. And if I didn't do these things I would have lots of anxiety.
Now I'm not so bad with everything. I still organize things enough so I know where everything is, but if it gets somewhat out of order I don't freak out anymore. I only clean when it's needed. The facing outward thing I still do with things in the cabinets, but don't freak out if they aren't perfect. I still prefer having things in even numbers, but again it's not a need. Teeth, I brush twice per day now and the longest is at night before bed it's roughly 8 minutes, I floss, clean my tongue, brush, rinse with mouthwash, etc. so I do the most at night.
But yea, someone who has had OCD or still does have it, is more likely to compulse over many things than other people. So it's easy to compulse over NBE so be careful. Many celebrities compulse over their looks and end up addicted to surgery and end up with more surgeries than they can count. So don't let it rule your life, just let it be a small part of it for now.
My compulsions started early in life as a little kid, I would organize things by size, color and shape, sometimes alphabetically by name. I also had to have everything in even numbers. I would also have to have everything facing outward, what I mean by that is say I had baby dolls on a shelf, if one was sideways I would have to turn her facing forward. I'm the same way with things inside cabinets, they have to be facing forward. I use to also clean and organize for hours a day. Even cleaning things that had just been cleaned and didn't need it again. I also had a very long teeth cleaning regimen when I was younger, 20 min teeth cleanings twice per day and I had to brush for at least 1 minute everytime I drank or ate something. This of course caused problems. And if I didn't do these things I would have lots of anxiety.
Now I'm not so bad with everything. I still organize things enough so I know where everything is, but if it gets somewhat out of order I don't freak out anymore. I only clean when it's needed. The facing outward thing I still do with things in the cabinets, but don't freak out if they aren't perfect. I still prefer having things in even numbers, but again it's not a need. Teeth, I brush twice per day now and the longest is at night before bed it's roughly 8 minutes, I floss, clean my tongue, brush, rinse with mouthwash, etc. so I do the most at night.
But yea, someone who has had OCD or still does have it, is more likely to compulse over many things than other people. So it's easy to compulse over NBE so be careful. Many celebrities compulse over their looks and end up addicted to surgery and end up with more surgeries than they can count. So don't let it rule your life, just let it be a small part of it for now.