04-06-2012, 22:08
Thanks so much, I got a 200 450mg Sp that I will just chuck away. I can't stress enough how I feel. I have a partner and obviously we don't have intercourse, but we love one another. She supports me and stands by me in everything, so I really do count my blessings. I don't have a libido at all, but from time to time I feel a movement and I can't explain how it disturbs me. I didn't develope properly and I have always looked feminine. At around 10 yrs old I started to bud and at 14 my breasts were very full. I tried to fit in but I couldn't do it and to be honest school was a living hell. I met my partner and she made me feel human and not some freak I thought I was. I told her everything and she was just lovely. My mum was also awesome as I grew up, without them both I think I would of done something stupid.
I only discovered PM 2 yrs ago and I take the 2000mg a day dose, 2x500mg in the morning and 2x500mg at night, i use the spray 3 times a week. I've filled out and I should be happy but I can't stand it down there. I literally have a panic attack as soon as I feel it move, it really does have to go I can't imagine my whole life with it no way. I've been in and out of psychiatric hospitals and I have never had a doctor that I can open up to. There was a female doctor who had a rough idea what was messing my head up but I freaked out when I was asked. I know my psychiatrist would be ok with me, but I'm not ready to spill it all out how I feel, and he's ot the right doctor i believe to spill it all out. Im diagnosed with panic disorder. I've seen loads of your stuff and I know you know your stuff regarding the medical side of things. I've watched many docramentries and the after care is quite scary, also the constant infections etc would concern me. I feel so desperate, but like I said I am very blessed having someone who genuinely loves me for who I am.
I will be consistent with the PM and give it another year or more. Thanks for taking the time to answer me it's really helped cus I would of took the SP. Everyone keeps talking about the new PM anteriol do, what is it? and why is it stronger if it's still 500mg? I don't get it. I'm using pm UK ATM but will change if you know a better one. Thanks Isabelle, forgive the typing as I'm on my phone. Every blessing, Kell.
I only discovered PM 2 yrs ago and I take the 2000mg a day dose, 2x500mg in the morning and 2x500mg at night, i use the spray 3 times a week. I've filled out and I should be happy but I can't stand it down there. I literally have a panic attack as soon as I feel it move, it really does have to go I can't imagine my whole life with it no way. I've been in and out of psychiatric hospitals and I have never had a doctor that I can open up to. There was a female doctor who had a rough idea what was messing my head up but I freaked out when I was asked. I know my psychiatrist would be ok with me, but I'm not ready to spill it all out how I feel, and he's ot the right doctor i believe to spill it all out. Im diagnosed with panic disorder. I've seen loads of your stuff and I know you know your stuff regarding the medical side of things. I've watched many docramentries and the after care is quite scary, also the constant infections etc would concern me. I feel so desperate, but like I said I am very blessed having someone who genuinely loves me for who I am.
I will be consistent with the PM and give it another year or more. Thanks for taking the time to answer me it's really helped cus I would of took the SP. Everyone keeps talking about the new PM anteriol do, what is it? and why is it stronger if it's still 500mg? I don't get it. I'm using pm UK ATM but will change if you know a better one. Thanks Isabelle, forgive the typing as I'm on my phone. Every blessing, Kell.