[Doll]

Thanks everyone, but I know I'm never going to be happy with my body. I'll always be the ugly duckling in my own eyes, and all this NBE, corset training and working out is just to make me feel like less of an ugly duckling (I know I'll never actually feel like a swan). But I'm ok with that. I know I hate so much about myself, but truthfully, I feel so much more confident than I ever have in my life. I can't change my breast shape or my nipples, my face shape or my hips. I'm just trying to get to a point where I can be almost happy with what I've got. I know that sounds kind of ridiculous and pathetic, but I've been put down my entire life, so I really don't think there will ever be a point where I'll actually be able to take a compliment and maybe see what other people see. But who knows, maybe in the end, I'll surprise myself and end up liking what I see.

I know if my breasts weren't this perfectly round shape and looked bigger, I'd probably be a little happier with myself overall now. But since they're so perky and look so small, I'm going to need quite a bit more growth to be happy with how they look. I've actually found a few pictures online of women who have my breast shape and have the 32DDD's I want, and even their breasts don't look all that big. So I'm guessing even once I hit that goal of mine, I'll still want to try for something a little bit bigger. I guess I also don't just want them to look big, but I also want them to feel big. They feel so small still. They feel especially small with my new 34D padded push-up bra that can't even push them up because of their shape. =_=