27-11-2012, 19:59
Honestly, I'd like to know this, too, because I'm constantly feeling in the dumps about myself. :/
I'll go to a bar or a party, get hit on by plenty of guys who tell me I'm sexy, and I just...still...don't know what they're seeing/talking about. I assume they're just off their rockers, 'cuz there's no way I could be sexy.
Hm, maybe I do have some BDD issues I need to address...
I really thought getting breasts would help my self esteem, and while it does feel good to fill out shirts better, I still feel very awkward. The way they grew makes me look weird in bras, and I've always got gapping at the top of a bra, so even if I fit in something, I still look like I'm trying to wear a bra a few sizes too big for myself...which brings about a whole other kind of self consciousness...
And wearing makeup DOES help me look better/older (my face without makeup makes me look maybe 15 or 16), but for whatever reason I can never get makeup to stay on my eyes...so then I constantly have to worry about touching up my makeup or it smearing and just making me look a wreck...
I just...can't win...
I'll go to a bar or a party, get hit on by plenty of guys who tell me I'm sexy, and I just...still...don't know what they're seeing/talking about. I assume they're just off their rockers, 'cuz there's no way I could be sexy.
Hm, maybe I do have some BDD issues I need to address...
I really thought getting breasts would help my self esteem, and while it does feel good to fill out shirts better, I still feel very awkward. The way they grew makes me look weird in bras, and I've always got gapping at the top of a bra, so even if I fit in something, I still look like I'm trying to wear a bra a few sizes too big for myself...which brings about a whole other kind of self consciousness...
And wearing makeup DOES help me look better/older (my face without makeup makes me look maybe 15 or 16), but for whatever reason I can never get makeup to stay on my eyes...so then I constantly have to worry about touching up my makeup or it smearing and just making me look a wreck...
I just...can't win...