[Black Hippie]

Emily Loretta
I meant in general! Thanks for the reply. I guess it is more about the attitude.

I really thought getting breasts would help my self esteem, and while it does feel good to fill out shirts better, I still feel very awkward. The way they grew makes me look weird in bras, and I've always got gapping at the top of a bra, so even if I fit in something, I still look like I'm trying to wear a bra a few sizes too big for myself...which brings about a whole other kind of self consciousness...

And wearing makeup DOES help me look better/older (my face without makeup makes me look maybe 15 or 16), but for whatever reason I can never get makeup to stay on my eyes...so then I constantly have to worry about touching up my makeup or it smearing and just making me look a wreck...

I just...can't win...

OMG!! I can relate with you so well! I am 20 years olds and I am still mistaken as 15-year-old. I can never find the right make-up to help me look older because of my dark skin lol. I guess I never felt sexy because people look at me as if I were a little girl.

OH! The same thing happens to me when I buy bras. I thought that met I didn’t fit into the size, so I stopped wearing bras for a while. After I lost my initial growth I didn’t bother buying new bras. I still do not know my bra size. I just tell people I too small to have one.

Being feminine is soo complicated!!