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Honestly, I'd like to know this, too, because I'm constantly feeling in the dumps about myself. :/

I'll go to a bar or a party, get hit on by plenty of guys who tell me I'm sexy, and I just...still...don't know what they're seeing/talking about. I assume they're just off their rockers, 'cuz there's no way I could be sexy.

Hm, maybe I do have some BDD issues I need to address...

I really thought getting breasts would help my self esteem, and while it does feel good to fill out shirts better, I still feel very awkward. The way they grew makes me look weird in bras, and I've always got gapping at the top of a bra, so even if I fit in something, I still look like I'm trying to wear a bra a few sizes too big for myself...which brings about a whole other kind of self consciousness...

And wearing makeup DOES help me look better/older (my face without makeup makes me look maybe 15 or 16), but for whatever reason I can never get makeup to stay on my eyes...so then I constantly have to worry about touching up my makeup or it smearing and just making me look a wreck...

I just...can't win...

are you using low quality make up? i tend to get people who complain about their make up but ive been using make up for about 6 years now and from being a broke teen and now the difference is I buy quality items that last me at least a year or more and they never smudge never look trashy and just keep your make up to the natural colors and it'll just enhance what you've got ! (are your eyes colored ? you should play on that... im jealous of white girls with light green hazel eyes !) but honestly there are issues you all need to address if you can't love yourself.. Right now I can honestly say I love myself in any way and even if I don't get my goal of D cups and end up with a fuller bust I'm happy either way !

edit: optimism is key, just keep looking at the better qualities of yourself example: you don't like your belly or waist right now right? but hey you got DD's ! why be sad about one measurement on your body when you got other things going for ya ! ( i tell myself I got no boobs but a nice ass all the time ^.^)