[CHDchest]

Does anybody on here find that their partners are less than supportive of their NBE? I told my partner when I first started in January and he was fine with me doing massage and my reasons for doing it (wanting to fit clothes better, look more in proportion etc). I didn't tell him about the hypnosis because I honestly felt silly doing it. There hasn't been much progress from either of these things - maybe 1-2cm growth in just over 3 months. Anyway, I mentioned the noogleberry and he was deadset against it. Said I didn't need it, wasn't proven to be successful, could be dangerous etc. I was so upset because I'd done the research and was ready to purchase one. Based on my research of the results of noogleberry after pumping, I made my own pump out of cardboard tubing and bits of medical devices I had hanging around (some tubing out of my cliniflow and the 2 halves of my asthma inhaler spacer as domes) and plugged the whole thing into the vaccum cleaner. It seems to be having the same result but it's bloody ridiculous - makes a racket, hard to do things with the domes on etc. I'm managing to pump an hour in the morning when he's at work. I figure I'll keep it up for a month or so and see if it works. It would be just so much easier if he was fine with me having it then I could pump in the afternoons and nights. I might still get a noogleberry and hide it. Anyone else have this problem? I tried talking with him and asked him why he even cared about it - only cost $50 and I wouldn't care if he wanted to buy some product to improve himself. It just makes me so mad because I don't ask for much and just want to erase two of the most obvious signs of my scoliosis and heart disease... Sorry for the vent folks.