16-05-2013, 23:19
I am so sorry! Maybe I should have said something sooner... when I first had an inkling that things weren't really working for you the way you REALLY needed.
Yeah. I recognized what you were doing as being the same thing I tried doing once, waaaaaay back in high school. Just the opposite.
I tried to over-masculinize to hide even more from reality. And I could see signs in you that you were doing the same type of thing, but over-feminizing to hide from YOUR reality.
Was it because of me that you were finally able to face your demons? If so, I'm glad at least that I was able to do that much for you... If not, well, I am still glad you're finally doing what you really need. And be assured I will support you fully in whatever way I can.
I know this isn't an easy thing to face... You do have it a LITTLE different from me. I won't be so stupid as to try to say easier... Because even though people aren't going to be as downright mean to you because of this, like they are to me, there's still a whole different kind of discrimination you're going to face. It stems from the same source. But it gets shown differently.
To be quite honest with you though, I have difficulty even with considering it a "disorder". The disorder is trying to be who you're not. Once you're able to become who you really are, there's no longer any disorder IMO. You're just a man with a birth defect. Just like I'll be a woman with a birth defect.
Who are we really? In my mind, I'm a mental and spiritual being first. My physical manifestation is only the shell used to house me. My mind and spirit are female. So I'm female. It's only the shell that betrayed me.
Yeah. I recognized what you were doing as being the same thing I tried doing once, waaaaaay back in high school. Just the opposite.
I tried to over-masculinize to hide even more from reality. And I could see signs in you that you were doing the same type of thing, but over-feminizing to hide from YOUR reality.
Was it because of me that you were finally able to face your demons? If so, I'm glad at least that I was able to do that much for you... If not, well, I am still glad you're finally doing what you really need. And be assured I will support you fully in whatever way I can.
I know this isn't an easy thing to face... You do have it a LITTLE different from me. I won't be so stupid as to try to say easier... Because even though people aren't going to be as downright mean to you because of this, like they are to me, there's still a whole different kind of discrimination you're going to face. It stems from the same source. But it gets shown differently.
To be quite honest with you though, I have difficulty even with considering it a "disorder". The disorder is trying to be who you're not. Once you're able to become who you really are, there's no longer any disorder IMO. You're just a man with a birth defect. Just like I'll be a woman with a birth defect.
Who are we really? In my mind, I'm a mental and spiritual being first. My physical manifestation is only the shell used to house me. My mind and spirit are female. So I'm female. It's only the shell that betrayed me.