[Tinytots]

vitoria2013 , You are an amazing person. My heart goes out to you. It is crying for you, for the pain you have and are experiencing in your life. But I love that you are a godly person. And you know about Jesus... Did you know that if you ask him, he will set you free from all of this. Remember when Jesus was being beaten, tortured, spit on, nails and thorns piercing through his skin. He did all of that for us. He loves you so much, he died for you. I have also met Jesus in a dream when I was only 5 yrs old. I let a baby sitters son have his way with me and grew up ashamed at myself. But one day I realized I didn't have to feel this way anymore. I forgave him for what he did. Jesus took my pain all away and now I pray for this man. We will always have to fight the battle of satan telling us we are not worthy as human beings because he hates us so much. Ask God to help you with your identity. He will lead you if you will ask. I will pray for you too. Remember God choose you to be here on this earth for a reason. He did not want you to suffer. Sometimes I feel like God lets us go through the suffering to make us a better person so we know how to help someone else. In the end we will be with him in heaven. We only have a short window on this earth. Seek out God. He is listening. He has spoke to me twice out of no where. About things I have cried and prayed for in the past. I didn't feel his presence when I was praying, it didn't feel like he was listening. But months down the road, his voice entered my head and confirmed what I had been praying about. So you know he is always omnipresent. He hears you. Now ask and trust him to guide you. He made you male. Satan is the one trying to sway your gender. Cast satan out into the desert in the name of Jesus. It will be a constant battle, day after day. He will come back at you with more of his army. Put on Gods armor, fight the battle. I believe in you, you can do this. I am a prayer worrier. I will pray for you my dear friend.

p.s. I was just telling God this morning that I do love myself the way that I am, with small boobs and all but I wanted more. Not just for me but for my hubby. I asked him to be with me on this journey. As I just felt like I was falling away from what he wants me to do for him I came across your story. See God puts certain people in each others lives for a reason. Even if it is on a forum and i've never met you, I feel for you the way Jesus does.