[AbiDrew85]

It's nothing you could have talked me out of, it's ok. Just something I had to try, I suppose. Live and learn, right? I just wish I'd learned years ago like I should have, haha!

Actually, you're one of the few people I thought about when I made my realization. I can tell giving in and working towards your true inner self has made you happy, and I realized I could be happy. So I do definitely thank you for everything you share here, you're definitely one of my biggest inspirations in this! <3 I've got hope that because of my PCOS, it will be fairly easy to increase my natural testosterone before getting on HRT. :3

I'm honestly kind of glad my progress came so fast, so that I could realize my feelings sooner rather than later. I think I'm mad at myself now for putting it off for so long, but how mad would I be if I didn't realize it until after 3+ years of slow NBE? ^^;

And I know considering it a disorder is very controversial, but I'm willing to accept it as that simply because it makes it easier for those who aren't transgendered to understand what the term actually means. We go through mental hell trying to find happiness for ourselves. Even as small children. This isn't just a decision we made. It's how we were made from the start. And I completely understand just how hard it is for someone happy with their gender to comprehend. Because I'm in the "wrong" body, and I'm still trying to wrap my mind around it.

Yeah... Actually I guess I kinda knew not to address it... If anyone had tried telling me when I was going through that stage that I was really a girl and that I should just accept it and start working towards that I'd've been like WTH are you smoking?

But still. At the same time part of me is going... I KNEW it! Shouldn't I have SAID SOMETHING!? :/

Ah well. You had to go through it. It's part of growing up for us. Or at least it USED to be. I kind of think that the newer generation, the current "child" transsexuals, actually are finding self-acceptance much easier than any of us older models.

I don't know if it's just because society is becoming less rigid about gender roles, which they are, or if it's because these young folks are that much stronger than we were. I kinda think it's the latter more than the former.