[Doll]

@Abi
Thanks, I'm Googling it now! Definitely been looking for a good aromatase inhibitor, but haven't been able to find anything solid!

@Anastasia
Oh, wow, I'm SOOOO glad I'm so against implants (not just for myself but on other women as well)! I would never be able to forgive myself if I'd made that mistake. o.o It's too bad she went through all that trouble just to realize it's not what she wants. And to think I was getting down on myself for spending all this money on herbs and stuff! Haha!

Although, I'm very disappointed now that I won't be able to get the type of top surgery I prefer. If I'd never tried NBE, I could have gotten keyhole surgery, and no one would be able to see my scars. But now it looks like I'm stuck with the other type that leaves VERY visible underbust scars for years, because it definitely seems like this is permanent breast tissue and they won't get any smaller with weight loss...=___= Oh woe is me...

Doll--

It may be a huge and difficult decision to make, but if it is the right one, it should be a relief for you... and that is the way it is sounding at least to me. I am so very happy for you! It completely makes sense now, in retrospect, to look back on how down you were on yourself despite all your feminine gains. It is great that you know now what you really need to do for your own happiness and stop unknowingly torturing yourself. Between discovering the benefits of your thyroid medication and now this, things are certainly looking up for you!

By the way, just a side note, but I am a little jealous I was talking to a girl in the gym a couple weeks ago about how difficult it is for a woman to obtain that "woman perfect" physique because it requires a growth of fat AND muscle in specific locations, and a loss of fat in specific locations, and as you know this is a difficult quest to conquer... but men only have to really gain muscle and lose fat, as far as a great looking masculine physique is concerned. I hate how what is expected of women is to be in shape, yet have enough fat in the right places.... But for men, what is expected is to just be in shape! With your determination, I am sure you will get that figure you are looking for soon enough! I do hope that you will keep us updated on your progress on this journey. Thank you for all that you have contributed to the plethora of information on this board towards getting a more womanly body. We are all here to support you in achieving your new goal I am so jealous that now you mostly have to worry about testosterone (which from the sounds of it, you already have plenty!) and building muscle and losing fat!! I will be honest to say that I hate this boobie-growing stuff... I like being fit and in shape, but I find messing with my hormones and decreasing my testosterone and trying to not lose too much fat (due to being afraid of losing it off of my bust) to be conflicting with my "getting in shape" goals. Hopefully this new journey for you should be not only more rewarding for you, but also hopefully easier!! Hopefully

Doll, you can be whatever you want to be, I truly believe that our bodies are all malleable and are always changing. Good luck, and keep us posted! We are all here for you.

I agree, it is much tougher to get a good female physique than a good male one. BEEN THURR. Although now that I've learned that spot reduction IS possible through striving for the perfect female body, I'm still using that to get the results I want for my perfect male body. Because although I do want masculine, semi-ripped muscles, I still would like to keep my ass for the most part. Because I still like guys with a juicy ass. So I'm trying to focus my fat burning on my arms and stomach more than anything, haha!

My OxyElite Pro has already taken a good bit of fat off my thighs (they're more muscle than fat now, although they still have enough fat where you can't see actual muscle definition). I've also lost an inch off my butt, which is good, because my butt is quite feminine and large for a man, but I don't want it to get too much smaller. I think once my hip muscles atrophy and my thighs get a little more thick with muscle I'll look man enough to overcome my bum. I'm learning that weight loss still isn't any easier as a man, but the muscle gains are already coming so much faster, so that's one thing that's much easier than being female. ^^; FTMs say once they started on T their muscles grew like crazy, so I guess once I get started on that I'll start hulking out real fast. LOL.

Only problem at this point is OTC T is illegal in the US, so I need to get some health insurance and a dr. asap before I can even start on hormones...IN THAT ASPECT, NBE IS MUCH SIMPLER. Especially since I hate doctors and think most of them are morons...