01-06-2013, 01:49
Doll,
I quite like the term ‘dysphoria’ to describe the condition that gender problems can produce, often without the sufferer being aware of the real cause. My dictionary describes it as meaning bearing affliction or pain, impatience under affliction, morbid restlessness, or want of feeling of wellbeing. No way has my dysphoria been as severe as yours seems to be, and my road away from it runs opposite to your own new direction. I hope that your journey brings you the same inner peace that mine has. Good luck to you , and I hope that you will let us know how you get on - We’d be very sorry to lose you here. Don’t regret the experience you have gained over the last little while and be thankful that you are fifty years younger than I am, and to have the likelihood of time to enjoy at your destination.
One thought - we are all heavily influenced by the hormonal regime under which we exist at any time, and you seem to have been driven to a highly perfectionist attitude towards your female body. I think that you should be prepared to find that once relieved of your dysphoria, male hormones may give you a somewhat different and possibly less demanding perspective, in the same way that an (opposite) change in hormone regime has done for me.
I have some of the same feelings about doctors that you do (too many doctors in my family). In response to your comments about obtaining testosterone, I would expect that it is available UTC (under the counter) in the bodybuilding community. Although I have no expertise in this field, you might want to consider DHT (dihydrotestosterone) instead of T. Look it up, and there is also a very interesting chapter on it in the book ‘Sexual Health for Men: the Complete Guide” by Richard F. Spark. Substantial chunks of the book, including the DHT chapter, are sampled on Google Books. DHT is apparently much stronger and more persistent than T, and has the further advantage that it cannot be aromatised to estrogen and tends to suppress normal T production. Apparently it does not cause male pattern baldness or BPH when taken as an exogenous hormone. It has apparently been used in France not only to treat BPH (which will be of no concern to you), but also to treat gynecomastia, which suggests that it should be much more effective than T in reversing your NBE. Again, I am no expert, but it looks worth researching.
Good luck again!
I quite like the term ‘dysphoria’ to describe the condition that gender problems can produce, often without the sufferer being aware of the real cause. My dictionary describes it as meaning bearing affliction or pain, impatience under affliction, morbid restlessness, or want of feeling of wellbeing. No way has my dysphoria been as severe as yours seems to be, and my road away from it runs opposite to your own new direction. I hope that your journey brings you the same inner peace that mine has. Good luck to you , and I hope that you will let us know how you get on - We’d be very sorry to lose you here. Don’t regret the experience you have gained over the last little while and be thankful that you are fifty years younger than I am, and to have the likelihood of time to enjoy at your destination.
One thought - we are all heavily influenced by the hormonal regime under which we exist at any time, and you seem to have been driven to a highly perfectionist attitude towards your female body. I think that you should be prepared to find that once relieved of your dysphoria, male hormones may give you a somewhat different and possibly less demanding perspective, in the same way that an (opposite) change in hormone regime has done for me.
I have some of the same feelings about doctors that you do (too many doctors in my family). In response to your comments about obtaining testosterone, I would expect that it is available UTC (under the counter) in the bodybuilding community. Although I have no expertise in this field, you might want to consider DHT (dihydrotestosterone) instead of T. Look it up, and there is also a very interesting chapter on it in the book ‘Sexual Health for Men: the Complete Guide” by Richard F. Spark. Substantial chunks of the book, including the DHT chapter, are sampled on Google Books. DHT is apparently much stronger and more persistent than T, and has the further advantage that it cannot be aromatised to estrogen and tends to suppress normal T production. Apparently it does not cause male pattern baldness or BPH when taken as an exogenous hormone. It has apparently been used in France not only to treat BPH (which will be of no concern to you), but also to treat gynecomastia, which suggests that it should be much more effective than T in reversing your NBE. Again, I am no expert, but it looks worth researching.
Good luck again!