01-10-2013, 04:26
(01-10-2013, 04:14)ExcitedAndNervous Wrote: haha yeah i remember seeing him on the man show, it was a 100,000 dollar bet, i need to learn to play black jack lol. I already know my girlfriends reactions to these things based on countless gauged reactions, thats why it worries me, but i feel i just need to do what I need to do, and the rest will fall in to place even if things seem to fall out of place in the process. If i told her I wanted to know what its like to be a girl she would instantly revert back to my statement of trans from 1.5 years ago and probably hit the ceiling with emotion and anger that I have been "lying to her" shes very my way or highway and has had a past of men who lied and abused her and i guess thats why i dont want to risk hurting her by telilng her this showing her that I am a good guy and a good guy for her even if i am a lil off my rocker lol
If I was in your position, I wouldn't want to hurt her, either, but, at the same time, it sounds like she's not letting YOU breathe. A relationship is a two way street and if both people aren't allowing each other to do what they like, I really don't see how the relationship can really last. There'll always be that wall between you. Maybe you can tell her from your heart that you love her madly and don't want to hurt her or lose her, but you HAVE to have what YOU want, just as she expects you to give her the chance to do what SHE wants. In that case, it might be a good idea to just be very close friends. If she REALLY loves you with all her heart she should let you be yourself. Right now, you're not only lying to her, you're lying to yourself. Can you live with that? If you can REALLY go the rest of your life without this one thing you really want (growing your tits), then, maybe you CAN spend your life with her. It's up to you. Good luck!! Take care!!