Hi Cselestyna,
Yes I did have growth but to make you understand a little and this is hard to explain.........I grew, got the fullness, but the weightloss has left me kinda emptyish. A 32B bra cuts me across in the middle and is too small but a 32C fits in some ways but I don't fill it out like I did.
I know, I know.........I could go back on the SBT and perhaps gain the fullness back but have never got to the size I was before and although it sounds good, it has left me with the feeling of - I want more. A bit like Oliver Twist, lol. I'ts hard to explain.
I have a terrific figure, but my bust lets me down. It always has done. I have gone through life feeling negative about my small breasts, feeling unconfident, feeling ashamed........unwomanly. No matter what lovely clothes I have to wear I never feel I look right in them as my top half doesn't match my bottom half in my eyes.
I wear a size 6 or 8 jeans, trousers, shorts, but my bottom half looks huge in comparison, even although it cannot be. So this is why I am opting to consider breast enlargement again. I hope to be a D/DD. It's as if that is what I am supposed to be except mother nature let me down along the line.
I have considered surgery so many times in the past then have chickened out at the last minute, then I regret doing so and start all over again. I just want to feel right in clothes for once and not have to hide my body in the dark or behind gel or padding.
I have all my old pics up on Eve's board. I think they may be archived. Who knows, if I do opt for surgery this time, I may keep a record of my pics but I know this isn't the same as NBE.
Sighs...............I just want to feel normal for the first time ever
x