[blessedbreasts]

I've been very stressed out lately. I have a pretty stressful life in general (which I'm sure is hampering my progress; it's certainly hampering any chance I have at attaining nice skin), but this past week was extra stressful. I've barely had time to relax properly. I tried to take a nap one day, and I wound up having to take a phone call. Also, yesterday was a hard, very bad day. It started terribly and I wound up feeling really drained and depressed.

I hope my life will change for the better in the near future.

Couldn't find a hot water bottle locally, so I'll order one from Amazon after all.

I'm really looking forward to taking spearmint. I'm getting more and more excited at the prospect of dabbling with herbs. Maybe if I like spearmint, I'll consider adding other herbs.

BB u r hyper like me like me u like do things quickly , no hanging about , well that's how I am I had to train myself to slow down and my old age helps even at my slower pace I am the fastest thinker and worker out of my 10 staff. Use lavender oil lamp for fragrance and put a lavender filled sachet under pillow . Works wonders . I find listening to classical music helps.

Ha ha, myboobs, not hyper! Just very busy and can't really afford to take my time. You sound extremely competent. I want to be like that.

I actually use lavender oil in my breast massage oil and in my homemade house fragrance products, and I love love love classical music! Listening to some Chopin right now.

If u can match 75 % of my abilities I will give job as a manager . Money is good too

I don't care what it is, I'll do it! I need the money so I can keep paying for my bigger boobies obsession! Er.. will you settle for matching 70% of your abilities, though?

[myboobs]

I've been very stressed out lately. I have a pretty stressful life in general (which I'm sure is hampering my progress; it's certainly hampering any chance I have at attaining nice skin), but this past week was extra stressful. I've barely had time to relax properly. I tried to take a nap one day, and I wound up having to take a phone call. Also, yesterday was a hard, very bad day. It started terribly and I wound up feeling really drained and depressed.

I hope my life will change for the better in the near future.

Couldn't find a hot water bottle locally, so I'll order one from Amazon after all.

I'm really looking forward to taking spearmint. I'm getting more and more excited at the prospect of dabbling with herbs. Maybe if I like spearmint, I'll consider adding other herbs.

BB u r hyper like me like me u like do things quickly , no hanging about , well that's how I am I had to train myself to slow down and my old age helps even at my slower pace I am the fastest thinker and worker out of my 10 staff. Use lavender oil lamp for fragrance and put a lavender filled sachet under pillow . Works wonders . I find listening to classical music helps.

Ha ha, myboobs, not hyper! Just very busy and can't really afford to take my time. You sound extremely competent. I want to be like that.

I actually use lavender oil in my breast massage oil and in my homemade house fragrance products, and I love love love classical music! Listening to some Chopin right now.

If u can match 75 % of my abilities I will give job as a manager . Money is good too

I don't care what it is, I'll do it! I need the money so I can keep paying for my bigger boobies obsession! Er.. will you settle for matching 70% of your abilities, though?

U r on PM me with details .

[blessedbreasts]

BB u r hyper like me like me u like do things quickly , no hanging about , well that's how I am I had to train myself to slow down and my old age helps even at my slower pace I am the fastest thinker and worker out of my 10 staff. Use lavender oil lamp for fragrance and put a lavender filled sachet under pillow . Works wonders . I find listening to classical music helps.

Ha ha, myboobs, not hyper! Just very busy and can't really afford to take my time. You sound extremely competent. I want to be like that.

I actually use lavender oil in my breast massage oil and in my homemade house fragrance products, and I love love love classical music! Listening to some Chopin right now.

If u can match 75 % of my abilities I will give job as a manager . Money is good too

I don't care what it is, I'll do it! I need the money so I can keep paying for my bigger boobies obsession! Er.. will you settle for matching 70% of your abilities, though?

U r on PM me with details .

SCORE!

[EllaC]

I've been very stressed out lately. I have a pretty stressful life in general (which I'm sure is hampering my progress; it's certainly hampering any chance I have at attaining nice skin), but this past week was extra stressful. I've barely had time to relax properly. I tried to take a nap one day, and I wound up having to take a phone call. Also, yesterday was a hard, very bad day. It started terribly and I wound up feeling really drained and depressed.

I hope my life will change for the better in the near future.

Couldn't find a hot water bottle locally, so I'll order one from Amazon after all.

I'm really looking forward to taking spearmint. I'm getting more and more excited at the prospect of dabbling with herbs. Maybe if I like spearmint, I'll consider adding other herbs.

Why the stress bb? No worries if its personal but we are happy for you to vent!!!

Yes In an ideal world id like to try cecis pm and spearmint plan. She has my goal boobies.

Oh Ella, it's not so much personal as it is a long story.

I'll try to shorten it. Basically my mom has been sickly as long as I've known her. Not "gets colds often" sickly, but "regularly winds up in the hospital for days because it's that critical" sickly (my mom's had it all, heart failure, questions of cancer, surgery). She's given us all kinds of scares. At the end of 2012, she gave us the worst yet and nearly died because her brain stem bled because of a super rare stroke. The doctors and nurses gave us no hope, and it's honestly only the hand of God that kept her alive because the professionals couldn't do anything for her (one neurologist even told me how to basically mercy kill her! I can't tell you how damaged that left me). When she miraculously survived, she still couldn't do a thing, and I'm not exaggerating. She was hooked up to so many machines that a family friend said that her hospital room looked like a cockpit, and at one point all she did was lie there, unblinking, and drool. It was so terrifying and disturbing to see her like that. It really did look hopeless and like the doctors and therapists were right.

She eventually started bleeding internally, and I think a lot of people thought that would be the end. For some reason, though, that seemed to reset everything, and after the bleeding stopped on its own and they found the source and put a metal clip on it so it wouldn't happen again, all of a sudden she started getting better. Over the course of a few weeks, she started blinking and looking directly at people and following them with her eyes, started moving her mouth and fighting to communicate, started getting finger movement, then full hand movement, then arm movement, started being able to swallow, and on and on... she is now completely in her right mind, talking, eating, walking with a walker, and recovering more and more everyday! We're all so grateful to God, because the few people who have a stroke like hers and survive just don't recover the things she's recovered and continues to recover.

The problem is, she's in a lot of pain because of her nerves and feeling all coming back to life, and she's stuck in the house, unable to do hardly anything for herself. My father and I take care of her. I've had to take over the cooking and keeping of the house on top of caring for her like a child and trying to carry on with the responsibilities my own life.

What's worse is she occasionally has meltdowns where she sobs and needs to vent about how miserable she actually is because of the discomfort and how hopeless it all seems. And she says all these terrible things about herself, which is absolutely heartbreaking because she's so so so precious and lovely. One of those meltdowns happened yesterday morning and it basically set the tone for my day, which was already stressful enough because my schedule has been more jam-packed than usual and I've had to do some out-of-the-ordinary things. I can usually deal with it better, but on top of how stressed out and busy I've been, it was too much.

It's just tough.

Sorry for how long this is!

Bb might be late before I can type you a decent response but I know just hiw you feel. Will explain soon.

[blessedbreasts]

No worries, sis, take your time. I'm glad I'm not alone.

[peggy]

BB, I am very sorry to hear what happened to your mom.

[EllaC]

Hi. Im back now.
First off WHAT AN INCREDIBLE WOMAN! she is!!!!
What she has beaten off its incredible! Shes invincible
Ok while I didn't experience what you have to the degree you have... question - do you drink???? (joking)
Im sure I would if I had as many scares as you have to be looking after her like you are. Well that's commendable and you will repaid for your sacrifices although I realise its no sacrifice when its family but you know what I mean..

My elderly mother who brought me up (grandmother) was the same, I spent a childhood of ambulances and hospital visits but in my case a lot of it was psychological for her. I too reached a stage that I feared to come home and find her NOT there.
I'd creep into her room at night as quiet as I could just checking she was still breathing (absolutely TERRIFIED of what would happen if I lost her).
But yes It came to an end a few years ago with a terrible stroke but she hung on for weeks when I was told she would pass overnight. I too was in a position like you of where I was told "how she was going to pass but by their hands". This has never left me, haunts me too.

BUTTTTT my g'mother was 93 by the time she passed and you're mum by goodness has a will to live and has beaten all the odds and a lot younger and stronger!
My only suggestion would be if and when she says these things you mentioned above I would explain to her lovingly how this makes you feel and that you carry these feelings ( I can sort of imagine what might be said hence my comments above). If I am off base then forgive me, just trying to offer anything that might help. And to let you know you have someone else out there who has experienced to a degree what you have.

Anyway soo great she is on the up and up, your positive encouragement as with your dad will keep her going! She probably longs to see you married with children much like mine did. Wanted to live to see the day she could hold my first born. These incentives are a testament to how stubborn and determined some people can be even when suffering terrible pain, the need to be around for their families

[blessedbreasts]

BB, I am very sorry to hear what happened to your mom.

Thanks, peggy.

[blessedbreasts]

Hi. Im back now.
First off WHAT AN INCREDIBLE WOMAN! she is!!!!
What she has beaten off its incredible! Shes invincible
Ok while I didn't experience what you have to the degree you have... question - do you drink???? (joking)
Im sure I would if I had as many scares as you have to be looking after her like you are. Well that's commendable and you will repaid for your sacrifices although I realise its no sacrifice when its family but you know what I mean..

My elderly mother who brought me up (grandmother) was the same, I spent a childhood of ambulances and hospital visits but in my case a lot of it was psychological for her. I too reached a stage that I feared to come home and find her NOT there.
I'd creep into her room at night as quiet as I could just checking she was still breathing (absolutely TERRIFIED of what would happen if I lost her).
But yes It came to an end a few years ago with a terrible stroke but she hung on for weeks when I was told she would pass overnight. I too was in a position like you of where I was told "how she was going to pass but by their hands". This has never left me, haunts me too.

BUTTTTT my g'mother was 93 by the time she passed and you're mum by goodness has a will to live and has beaten all the odds and a lot younger and stronger!
My only suggestion would be if and when she says these things you mentioned above I would explain to her lovingly how this makes you feel and that you carry these feelings ( I can sort of imagine what might be said hence my comments above). If I am off base then forgive me, just trying to offer anything that might help. And to let you know you have someone else out there who has experienced to a degree what you have.

Anyway soo great she is on the up and up, your positive encouragement as with your dad will keep her going! She probably longs to see you married with children much like mine did. Wanted to live to see the day she could hold my first born. These incentives are a testament to how stubborn and determined some people can be even when suffering terrible pain, the need to be around for their families

She is amazing. She's already beaten other serious things (she's well past the life expectancy for someone who's had congestive heart failure), but for her to not only survive this but to keep recovering is a testament to how much favor she has with God.

Believe it or not, none of us drink!

Reading that you would creep into your grandmother's room to check on her broke my heart! I know you must have missed out on a lot of sleep. I've never done that, but I have been terrified of getting phone calls in the night while my mom was in the hospital. Phone calls in the middle of the night could only mean one thing...

Still, for your grandmother to live to be 93! That's amazing! And she survived for weeks after her stroke! What a powerful lady. I know you must have drawn so much strength from her.

Thank you for the advice. I'm afraid I'd make her feel worse, though. I try to make her focus on how far she's come and how she's still getting better. It's difficult to focus on those things, though, when one is in great pain.

I'm sure she does want to see me married, and my oldest brother as well, and wants to see her current grandchildren grow up. I hope that does keep her going. Plus she has a ministry at church, and my dad is convinced she's not done with it yet. She still has too much to live for to go any time soon! And now all the doctors and therapists are saying she's healthy and she's going to keep getting better, and in a few years she's going to feel so much better than she does now. She's going to be fine. It's just the pain and misery that we have to go through to get there that's hard.

Thanks for letting me vent, and sharing your own experience! We all go through tough things, but we get through it in the end.

[blessedbreasts]

Can anyone weigh in on how they take spearmint (those of you who take the capsules)? I was wondering if I should take it on an empty stomach or with a meal. The bottle doesn't list any specifications, so I wonder if it doesn't matter. How is everyone else doing it?