You probably becoming attracted to males is not as bad as how I did to women! LOL I'm bisexual by the way, so very open minded. I found I was attracted to women when I started making out with a girl while drunk, I always remember everything the next day, and well I fantasized about it after that. Now I find women who are petite, nice round breasts (doesn't really matter on size to me) and nice butts with dark hair and nice eyes and smile very sexy. I like green or bright blue eyes. Just makes you wanna look into them forever! And no I enjoyed the read, thanks, it wasn't boring at all, I find it all fascinating. And lol the short attention span is part of the "female wiring" taking over, but typically we can think of multiple things at once, for example right now I'm thinking about what I'm writing, watching TV and have thought processes going on with what's going on in the show, thinking that my dog is annoying the hell out of me and he's about to be sent outside, and thinking about what I want for dinner all at the same time. This is why women make awesome multitaskers it's why we have the babies I think
having and taking care of children, you have to be a multitasker. So seems you are getting the "busy brain" like we have, but not the multi thoughts like we have. It's scientifically proven that most women like 98% never stop thinking, period, our brain is always thinking, 24/7, 365. And the thoughts are often random, one minute we are thinking about omg I forgot to do this, and next thinking about how we have to email such and such about this. It's never consistent. So I would imagine going from a male way of thinking to a females can be overwhelming for you, not trying to be rude at all! But males typically, again not all, think of only 1 thing at a time, the thought processes are normally related besides the random sex thoughts. And there are times males DON'T THINK!!! They have blank minds ladies! So when your man is just sitting there looking zoned out with his hand in his pants (typical blank mind male position lol) they are not thinking of anything and when you ask "what are you thinking about?" and they say nothing, they really are telling the truth! It's not that they are trying to hide what they are thinking! I've seen this happen so much with couples....
Guy is sitting there drifting off in space, girl asks "whatcha thinking about babe?" guy says "nothing" girl gets irritated thinking he's lying and says "it's okay you can just tell me" guy says, "no really I'm not thinking about anything" and typically the girl gets pissed thinking he's lying for whatever reason she starts firing off in her multiple thoughts lol. Ladies stop getting mad at guys for this, they are simple creatures lol we are the complicated and elaborate ones.
I think it's crazy you like romance movies Cheryl, I always HATED soap operas and those sappy love movies, still do! And I'm a born female and very girly now otherwise. I don't like watching sports, I use to play them. As close to romance as I get are romantic comedies like "What Happens In Vegas" "The Ugly Truth" etc. And yea, males NEVER understand why we cry sometimes when we are emotional. My hubby claims he never had an ex as emotional as me, where when I'm stressed about something sad I cry. But he also never lived with any of his exes and the longest I think he was with someone before me was 8 months. So yea I told him he wasn't around them enough, they waited till he wasn't around lol.
I think it's crazy that all these changes even changed the way you think, that's amazing! Now if only you could have a period and become pregnant and have a vaginal birth, you would know what it's fully like to be a woman! Maybe one day that will be possible. And yea I agree some males are creepy the way they go about checking you out. I don't mind it much if they do it without starring too long, gawking, or just all out being creepy. Like one time I was at the grocery store and I had just got back from the beach so I was in a bikini, tank top and shorts. This OLD man, like old enough to be my grandfather was standing behind me in the checkout line. He dropped his things and grabbed his chest, my mom does home health care for elderly, so I am use to reacting quick to the elderly having heart attacks, falling, etc. etc. So instantly I stop what I'm doing and ask if he's okay, he doesn't answer me so I tell the lady behind the counter to call for help and I start picking up the things off the floor to prepare to lay him on the floor. As I'm bent over picking the things up I look up to check on him and he had stopped grabbing his chest, gawking down my shirt and had the biggest grin on his face. I wanted to slap the teeth out his mouth! I am not one to hit an elderly person so I just threw his things across the floor called him an old perv and left storming off.
And when assholes grab what they want, you stomp their toes with your heels or grab em by the balls, squeeze em really hard and ask if it feels good lol, that's what I use to do. They typically get the picture. Hell it would probably be even more funny, if you were comfortable to do this of course, to put their hand on your penis and say to them, no here big boy. LOL If I had a penis I would SOOO do that! It would freak out the straight ones, not so much the gay ones though. I thought about buying one of those flaccid strap ons made for lesbians to wear under their clothes to look and feel like they have a penis, and freaking people out with it lol could you imagine? A short, small, petite woman like me having a penis? I think it would be hilarious. I dunno I'm a bit crazy and love making others laugh or freak out. I'm a jokester always have been. I sometimes take on of my toys (one of the gelly or life like ones that bend like real ones do) and slap hubby in the face with it to wake him up, the look on his face everytime is priceless lol and use to before his injury, he would chase me around the house afterward then tickle me to death. We have fun messing with each other. Most people think our relationship is weird, but eh, it works for us, and you gotta remember I use to be a tomboy, that mindset is still there.