31-10-2014, 15:15
Hi everyone,
I guess I'm Ellie
Name subject to change! Only chose it because I have the same hair as Eleanor Ripley and love the Aliens films ^_^ A bit of a girly name and to be quite honest I'm not sure which side of the gender fence I am on yet, if any.
I've had gender issues privately since puberty. I always imagined myself as a woman and if there was some magic pill I could take that would let me wake up tomorrow as female I would jump at the chance. But at the same time, I am quite comfortable as male at the moment as well. In an ideal world, I could be both, but the world isn't ideal and so now I'm 31 and fully male, and not a bad looking male to be honest. I'm 6ft 2in tall which is one thing that has put me off transitioning. Always thought I could never be passable being so tall, though I am only a medium build at least.
I've been going deeper down the gender rabbit hole in the last year especially. I had always been a fan of TG fiction, and had experience writing short horror stories, though last year I turned my pen to writing TG erotica. I write during most of my free time and I'm actually fairly well known in the genre now. Spending so much time with my mind in my stories has really developed this side of me.
Then a few weeks ago I was getting off the train and walking next to me was a stunning girl, my height, wearing all black, as I do. She was fascinating. That was probably the eureka moment for me beacuse shortly after I began seriously looking into the possiblity of transitioning.
Main problem now is I have an aversion to doctors. Haven't been to a doctor or hospital since I had some vaccinations done when I was 10. (I'm in the UK by the was so we have the NHS) When I came across PM I was skeptical but seeing some of the results on this forum has encouraged me to give it a try
I began SP and spearmint tea at the start of this week, and began PM yesterday.
Pretty sure I am low T to begin with. At 31 I have no signs of balding and practically no male body hair. My facial hair is also relatively sparse, and though I'm quite tall I do have a somewhat feminine fat distribution to begin with (I am 196lb though losing weight at the moment as well). The women in my family are fairly well endowed so I have that going for me as well ^_^
I also have an appointment for electrolysis to start removing at least some of my facial hair.
As I say, ideally I would like to be able to pass as both if I can, so I can pick and choose as I want, but we'll see where the journey takes me!
Thanks to everyone who has been sharing their progress. You're inspirational. I hope I will have something to share in future as well!
I guess I'm Ellie
Name subject to change! Only chose it because I have the same hair as Eleanor Ripley and love the Aliens films ^_^ A bit of a girly name and to be quite honest I'm not sure which side of the gender fence I am on yet, if any.I've had gender issues privately since puberty. I always imagined myself as a woman and if there was some magic pill I could take that would let me wake up tomorrow as female I would jump at the chance. But at the same time, I am quite comfortable as male at the moment as well. In an ideal world, I could be both, but the world isn't ideal and so now I'm 31 and fully male, and not a bad looking male to be honest. I'm 6ft 2in tall which is one thing that has put me off transitioning. Always thought I could never be passable being so tall, though I am only a medium build at least.
I've been going deeper down the gender rabbit hole in the last year especially. I had always been a fan of TG fiction, and had experience writing short horror stories, though last year I turned my pen to writing TG erotica. I write during most of my free time and I'm actually fairly well known in the genre now. Spending so much time with my mind in my stories has really developed this side of me.
Then a few weeks ago I was getting off the train and walking next to me was a stunning girl, my height, wearing all black, as I do. She was fascinating. That was probably the eureka moment for me beacuse shortly after I began seriously looking into the possiblity of transitioning.
Main problem now is I have an aversion to doctors. Haven't been to a doctor or hospital since I had some vaccinations done when I was 10. (I'm in the UK by the was so we have the NHS) When I came across PM I was skeptical but seeing some of the results on this forum has encouraged me to give it a try
I began SP and spearmint tea at the start of this week, and began PM yesterday.Pretty sure I am low T to begin with. At 31 I have no signs of balding and practically no male body hair. My facial hair is also relatively sparse, and though I'm quite tall I do have a somewhat feminine fat distribution to begin with (I am 196lb though losing weight at the moment as well). The women in my family are fairly well endowed so I have that going for me as well ^_^
I also have an appointment for electrolysis to start removing at least some of my facial hair.
As I say, ideally I would like to be able to pass as both if I can, so I can pick and choose as I want, but we'll see where the journey takes me!
Thanks to everyone who has been sharing their progress. You're inspirational. I hope I will have something to share in future as well!
