I decided to become a girl because I wanted to be a girl , not because I felt myself to be a girl . To me honestly I consider myself as much of a woman as a woman who feels herself to be a woman because I think this way : a man would never want to be a woman , I want to be a woman , conclusion : I am not a man but a woman .
There are hundreds of kids like Jazz and others out there claiming they knew before they could speak . I don't fit the narrative but that doesn't make me less trans than any other trans woman .
I am a woman because I have always wanted to be one ever since I was little . I always extremely admired women , was jealous of them ,... even though I felt myself to be the gender I was born in I didn't want to be that gender and it caused me pain . Huge pain .
The media made me believe for so long that you had to feel like a woman with your whole heart ever since you were conscious . That I didn't qualify to be a woman .
Well , here's my reply to these media today : I am all estrogen , I am all woman . No matter what I was born , no matter how I was born , I am a woman because I want to be one and that desire overpowers everything else .
I stopped caring about " transer than thou " types . They usually project their own fear on others . Why the hell would I be less trans than them ?
If you want boobs and / or a vagina and want to live as a woman and look like a woman , then you are a woman . Period .
No matter what you factually are inside , all that matters is what you want to be . Wanting to be another gender than the one you were born is is enough to be trans in my opinion . Even if brain scans would show that I'm cis in my brains I would still consider myself trans . Trans enough to transition . That makes me happy and that's all that matters . Full stop .
Besides : because my desire to be a woman was so strong I observed women continuously and developed a thought pattern similar to theirs . So even my brains are actually female because I wanted them to be female .
Here's my message to all transgender people out there scared to transition : it doesn't matter if you feel like your birth gender , if you want to be the other gender and it will make you happy to live and look like that gender then you are as much of a trans person as trans individuals claiming themselves to feel like the gender they want to be .
Life is already too short , don't make it shorter by waiting with the fulfillment of your dreams . It's better to face regret over what you did than what you didn't . Regret rates are hella small so happiness most likely awaits you on the other side .
I'm so so happy with who I am becoming that I don't care to be seen as cis by " transer than thou's " .
Anyone else who transitioned / is transitioning and recognises themselves in my story?
Hugs ,
Elissa
There are hundreds of kids like Jazz and others out there claiming they knew before they could speak . I don't fit the narrative but that doesn't make me less trans than any other trans woman .
I am a woman because I have always wanted to be one ever since I was little . I always extremely admired women , was jealous of them ,... even though I felt myself to be the gender I was born in I didn't want to be that gender and it caused me pain . Huge pain .
The media made me believe for so long that you had to feel like a woman with your whole heart ever since you were conscious . That I didn't qualify to be a woman .
Well , here's my reply to these media today : I am all estrogen , I am all woman . No matter what I was born , no matter how I was born , I am a woman because I want to be one and that desire overpowers everything else .
I stopped caring about " transer than thou " types . They usually project their own fear on others . Why the hell would I be less trans than them ?
If you want boobs and / or a vagina and want to live as a woman and look like a woman , then you are a woman . Period .
No matter what you factually are inside , all that matters is what you want to be . Wanting to be another gender than the one you were born is is enough to be trans in my opinion . Even if brain scans would show that I'm cis in my brains I would still consider myself trans . Trans enough to transition . That makes me happy and that's all that matters . Full stop .
Besides : because my desire to be a woman was so strong I observed women continuously and developed a thought pattern similar to theirs . So even my brains are actually female because I wanted them to be female .
Here's my message to all transgender people out there scared to transition : it doesn't matter if you feel like your birth gender , if you want to be the other gender and it will make you happy to live and look like that gender then you are as much of a trans person as trans individuals claiming themselves to feel like the gender they want to be .
Life is already too short , don't make it shorter by waiting with the fulfillment of your dreams . It's better to face regret over what you did than what you didn't . Regret rates are hella small so happiness most likely awaits you on the other side .
I'm so so happy with who I am becoming that I don't care to be seen as cis by " transer than thou's " .
Anyone else who transitioned / is transitioning and recognises themselves in my story?
Hugs ,
Elissa
