15-08-2016, 02:07
(This post was last modified: 15-08-2016, 02:09 by GoldenBoobs.)
I have only been doing my routine for two weeks now, but already feeling very discouraged. I was scheduled for breast implants last month, but canceled, because I was afraid of anesthesia. Afraid of dying from it, having a stroke from it, etc.
I made rice sizers weeks before my surgery was scheduled to stick in my bra around the house to get used to what my new size would be. I was so happy. I keep on putting them in now and getting so depressed. I was going to have boobs.
My NBE routine is simple, just massage and I was using Zoft gum, but I stopped using the gum today because it was really making my throat hurt. I bought it from Amazon and the packaging was dirty even, so maybe the seller sold me old gum that had been sitting around for years or something. I don't know but I'm just done with the gum altogether.
I am only sticking to massage now with coconut oil and red clover oil. But I keep on thinking to myself "what if I am only able to get one cup size out of this, or what if I am doing this for months and do not get any increase in size at all?"
I know I am not going to see any results in only two weeks, but I am so worried that I will put so much time and effort into this and only come out feeling even more depressed in the end. But then, if I get implants now, I know I will always wonder if I would have been able to grow them on my own, so I guess that thought right there will keep me going.
I think it will be a lot easier once it starts getting cold and I will be inside all the time. Right now it is so hard because I have been going to the beach a lot, still not being able to fill out bikini tops or pretty little dresses even. On one hand, I hope the last of the summer days go by slow because I hate cold weather. But on the other hand, I will be kind of relieved when fall gets here so it will be easier for me to stop thinking about not filling out bikini tops and summer clothes.
I made rice sizers weeks before my surgery was scheduled to stick in my bra around the house to get used to what my new size would be. I was so happy. I keep on putting them in now and getting so depressed. I was going to have boobs.
My NBE routine is simple, just massage and I was using Zoft gum, but I stopped using the gum today because it was really making my throat hurt. I bought it from Amazon and the packaging was dirty even, so maybe the seller sold me old gum that had been sitting around for years or something. I don't know but I'm just done with the gum altogether.
I am only sticking to massage now with coconut oil and red clover oil. But I keep on thinking to myself "what if I am only able to get one cup size out of this, or what if I am doing this for months and do not get any increase in size at all?"
I know I am not going to see any results in only two weeks, but I am so worried that I will put so much time and effort into this and only come out feeling even more depressed in the end. But then, if I get implants now, I know I will always wonder if I would have been able to grow them on my own, so I guess that thought right there will keep me going.
I think it will be a lot easier once it starts getting cold and I will be inside all the time. Right now it is so hard because I have been going to the beach a lot, still not being able to fill out bikini tops or pretty little dresses even. On one hand, I hope the last of the summer days go by slow because I hate cold weather. But on the other hand, I will be kind of relieved when fall gets here so it will be easier for me to stop thinking about not filling out bikini tops and summer clothes.